Of the
struggle, however, she was not herself the less conscious, and she
told herself that on that account also she must go. And then she
must go also because of Major Grantly. Whether he was minded to
come and speak to her that one other needed word, or whether he was
not so minded, it would be better that she should be away from
Silverbridge. If he spoke it she could only answer him by a
negative; and if he were minded not to speak it, would it not be
better that she should leave herself the power of thinking that his
silence had been caused by her absence, and not by his coldness or
indifference?
She asked, therefore, for an interview with Miss Prettyman, and
was shown into the elder sister's room, at eleven o'clock on the
Tuesday morning. The elder Miss Prettyman never came into the
school herself till twelve, but was in the habit of having
interviews with the young ladies,—which were sometimes very awful
in their nature,—for the two previous hours. During these
interviews an immense amount of business was done, and the fortunes
in life of some girls were said to have been there made or marred;
as when, for instance, Miss Crimpton had been advised to stay at
home with her uncle in England, instead of going out with her
sisters to India, both of which sisters were married within three
months of their landing in Bombay. The way in which she gave her
counsel on such occasions was very efficacious. No one knew better
than Miss Prettyman that a cock can crow most effectively in his
own farmyard, and therefore all crowing intended to be effective
was done by her within the shrine of her own peculiar room.
"Well, my dear, what is it?" she said to Grace. "Sit in the
arm-chair, my dear, and we can then talk comfortably." The
teachers, when they were closeted with Miss Prettyman, were always
asked to sit in the arm-chair, whereas a small, straight-backed,
uneasy chair was kept for the young ladies. And there was, too, a
stool of repentance, out against the wall, very uncomfortable
indeed for young ladies who had not behaved themselves so prettily
as young ladies generally do.
Grace seated herself, and then began her speech very quickly.
"Miss Prettyman," she said, "I have made up my mind that I will go
home, if you please."
"And why should you go home, Grace? Did I not tell you that you
should have a home here?" Miss Prettyman had weak eyes, and was
very small, and had never possessed any claim to be called
good-looking. And she assumed nothing of the majestical awe from
any adornment or studied amplification of the outward woman by
means of impressive trappings. The possessor of an unobservant eye
might have called her a mean-looking, little old woman. And
certainly there would have been nothing awful in her to any one who
came across her otherwise than as a lady having authority in her
own school. But within her own precincts, she did know how to
surround herself with a dignity which all felt who approached her
there. Grace Crawley, as she heard the simple question which Miss
Prettyman had asked, unconsciously acknowledged the strength of the
woman's manner. She already stood rebuked for having proposed a
plan so ungracious, so unnecessary, and so unwise.
"I think I ought to be with mamma at present," said Grace.
"You mother has your sister with her."
"Yes, Miss Prettyman; Jane is there."
"If there is no other reason, I cannot think that that can be
held to be a reason now. Of course your mother would like to have
you always; unless you should be married,—but then there are
reasons why this should not be so."
"Of course there are."
"I do not think,—that is, if I know all that there is to be
known,—I do not think, I say, that there can be any good ground for
your leaving us now,—just now."
Then Grace sat silent for a moment, gathering her courage, and
collecting her words; and after that she spoke. "It is because of
papa, and because of this charge—"
"But, Grace—"
"I know what you are going to say, Miss Prettyman;—that is, I
think I know."
"If you will hear me, you may be sure that you know."
"But I want you to hear me for one moment first. I beg your
pardon, Miss Prettyman; I do indeed, but I want to say this before
you go on. I must go home, and I know I ought. We are all
disgraced, and I won't stop here to disgrace the school. I know
papa has done nothing wrong; but nevertheless we are disgraced. The
police are to bring him in here on Thursday, and everybody in
Silverbridge will know it. It cannot be right that I should be here
teaching in the school, while it is all going on;—and I won't. And,
Miss Prettyman, I couldn't do it,—indeed I couldn't. I can't bring
myself to think of anything I am doing. Indeed I can't; and then,
Miss Prettyman, there are other reasons." By the time that she had
proceeded thus far, Grace Crawley's words were nearly choked by her
tears.
"And what are the other reasons, Grace?"
"I don't know," said Grace, struggling to speak through her
tears.
"But I know," said Miss Prettyman. "I know them all. I know all
your reasons, and I tell you that in my opinion you ought to remain
where you are, and not go away. The very reasons which to you are
reasons for your going, to me are reasons for your remaining
here."
"I can't remain.
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