I'll talk
openly to you, Pinch.'
'Do!' said Tom. 'I shall take it as being very friendly of
you,'
'I'm not in your way, am I?' inquired Martin, glancing down at
Mr Pinch, who was by this time looking at the fire over his
leg.
'Not at all!' cried Tom.
'You must know then, to make short of a long story,' said
Martin, beginning with a kind of effort, as if the revelation were
not agreeable to him; 'that I have been bred up from childhood with
great expectations, and have always been taught to believe that I
should be, one day, very rich. So I should have been, but for
certain brief reasons which I am going to tell you, and which have
led to my being disinherited.'
'By your father?' inquired Mr Pinch, with open eyes.
'By my grandfather. I have had no parents these many years.
Scarcely within my remembrance.'
'Neither have I,' said Tom, touching the young man's hand with
his own and timidly withdrawing it again. 'Dear me!'
'Why, as to that, you know, Pinch,' pursued the other, stirring
the fire again, and speaking in his rapid, off-hand way; 'it's all
very right and proper to be fond of parents when we have them, and
to bear them in remembrance after they're dead, if you have ever
known anything of them. But as I never did know anything about mine
personally, you know, why, I can't be expected to be very
sentimental about 'em. And I am not; that's the truth.'
Mr Pinch was just then looking thoughtfully at the bars. But on
his companion pausing in this place, he started, and said 'Oh! of
course'—and composed himself to listen again.
'In a word,' said Martin, 'I have been bred and reared all my
life by this grandfather of whom I have just spoken. Now, he has a
great many good points—there is no doubt about that; I'll not
disguise the fact from you—but he has two very great faults, which
are the staple of his bad side. In the first place, he has the most
confirmed obstinacy of character you ever met with in any human
creature. In the second, he is most abominably selfish.'
'Is he indeed?' cried Tom.
'In those two respects,' returned the other, 'there never was
such a man. I have often heard from those who know, that they have
been, time out of mind, the failings of our family; and I believe
there's some truth in it. But I can't say of my own knowledge. All
I have to do, you know, is to be very thankful that they haven't
descended to me, and, to be very careful that I don't contract
'em.'
'To be sure,' said Mr Pinch. 'Very proper.'
'Well, sir,' resumed Martin, stirring the fire once more, and
drawing his chair still closer to it, 'his selfishness makes him
exacting, you see; and his obstinacy makes him resolute in his
exactions. The consequence is that he has always exacted a great
deal from me in the way of respect, and submission, and self-denial
when his wishes were in question, and so forth. I have borne a
great deal from him, because I have been under obligations to him
(if one can ever be said to be under obligations to one's own
grandfather), and because I have been really attached to him; but
we have had a great many quarrels for all that, for I could not
accommodate myself to his ways very often—not out of the least
reference to myself, you understand, but because—' he stammered
here, and was rather at a loss.
Mr Pinch being about the worst man in the world to help anybody
out of a difficulty of this sort, said nothing.
'Well! as you understand me,' resumed Martin, quickly, 'I
needn't hunt for the precise expression I want. Now I come to the
cream of my story, and the occasion of my being here. I am in love,
Pinch.'
Mr Pinch looked up into his face with increased interest.
'I say I am in love. I am in love with one of the most beautiful
girls the sun ever shone upon. But she is wholly and entirely
dependent upon the pleasure of my grandfather; and if he were to
know that she favoured my passion, she would lose her home and
everything she possesses in the world. There is nothing very
selfish in THAT love, I think?'
'Selfish!' cried Tom. 'You have acted nobly. To love her as I am
sure you do, and yet in consideration for her state of dependence,
not even to disclose—'
'What are you talking about, Pinch?' said Martin pettishly:
'don't make yourself ridiculous, my good fellow! What do you mean
by not disclosing?'
'I beg your pardon,' answered Tom. 'I thought you meant that, or
I wouldn't have said it.'
'If I didn't tell her I loved her, where would be the use of my
being in love?' said Martin: 'unless to keep myself in a perpetual
state of worry and vexation?'
'That's true,' Tom answered. 'Well! I can guess what SHE said
when you told her,' he added, glancing at Martin's handsome
face.
'Why, not exactly, Pinch,' he rejoined, with a slight frown;
'because she has some girlish notions about duty and gratitude, and
all the rest of it, which are rather hard to fathom; but in the
main you are right. Her heart was mine, I found.'
'Just what I supposed,' said Tom. 'Quite natural!' and, in his
great satisfaction, he took a long sip out of his wine-glass.
'Although I had conducted myself from the first with the utmost
circumspection,' pursued Martin, 'I had not managed matters so well
but that my grandfather, who is full of jealousy and distrust,
suspected me of loving her. He said nothing to her, but straightway
attacked me in private, and charged me with designing to corrupt
the fidelity to himself (there you observe his selfishness), of a
young creature whom he had trained and educated to be his only
disinterested and faithful companion, when he should have disposed
of me in marriage to his heart's content. Upon that, I took fire
immediately, and told him that with his good leave I would dispose
of myself in marriage, and would rather not be knocked down by him
or any other auctioneer to any bidder whomsoever.'
Mr Pinch opened his eyes wider, and looked at the fire harder
than he had done yet.
'You may be sure,' said Martin, 'that this nettled him, and that
he began to be the very reverse of complimentary to myself.
Interview succeeded interview; words engendered words, as they
always do; and the upshot of it was, that I was to renounce her, or
be renounced by him.
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