Our raiment, such as it was, we were also indebted to the
feathered tribe for. The birds were skinned with the feathers on, and
their skins sewn together with sinews, and a fish-bone by way of a
needle. These garments were not very durable, but the climate was so
fine that we did not suffer from the cold at any season of the year.
I used to make myself a new dress every year when the birds came; but
by the time that they returned, I had little left of my last year's
suit, the fragments of which might be found among the rocky and steep
parts of the ravine where we used to collect firing.
Living such a life, with so few wants, and those periodically and
easily supplied, hardly varied from one year's end to another, it may
easily be imagined that I had but few ideas. I might have had more,
if my companion had not been of such a taciturn and morose habit; as
it was, I looked at the wide ocean, and the sky, and the sun, moon,
and stars, wondering, puzzled, afraid to ask questions, and ending
all by sleeping away a large portion of my existence. We had no tools
except the old ones, which were useless—no employment of any kind.
There was a book, and I asked what it was for and what it was, but I
got no answer. It remained upon the shelf, for if I looked at it I
was ordered away, and at last I regarded it with a sort of fear, as
if it were a kind of incomprehensible animal. The day was passed in
idleness and almost silence; perhaps not a dozen sentences were
exchanged in the twenty-four hours. My companion always the same,
brooding over something which appeared ever to occupy his thoughts,
and angry if roused up from his reverie.
Chapter II
The reader must understand that the foregoing remarks are to be
considered as referring to my position and amount of knowledge when I
was seven or eight years old. My master, as I called him, was a short
square-built man, about sixty years of age, as I afterwards estimated
from recollection and comparison. His hair fell down his back in
thick clusters and was still of a dark color, and his beard was full
two feet long and very bushy; indeed, he was covered with hair,
wherever his person was exposed. He was, I should say, very powerful
had he had occasion to exert his strength, but with the exception of
the time at which we collected the birds, and occasionally going up
the ravine to bring down faggots of wood, he seldom moved out of the
cabin unless it was to bathe. There was a pool of salt water of about
twenty yards square, near the sea, but separated from it by a low
ridge of rocks, over which the waves only beat when the sea was rough
and the wind on that side of the island. Every morning almost we went
down to bathe in that pool, as it was secure from the sharks, which
were very numerous. I could swim like a fish as early as I can
recollect, but whether I was taught, or learnt myself, I cannot tell.
Thus was my life passed away; my duties were trifling; I had little
or nothing to employ myself about, for I had no means of employment.
I seldom heard the human voice, and became as taciturn as my
companion. My amusements were equally confined—looking down into the
depths of the ocean, as I lay over the rocky wall which girded the
major portion of the island, and watching the motions of the finny
tribes below, wondering at the stars during the night season, eating,
and sleeping. Thus did I pass away an existence without pleasure and
without pain. As for what my thoughts were I can hardly say, my
knowledge and my ideas were too confined for me to have any food for
thought. I was little better than a beast of the field, that lies
down on the pasture after he is filled. There was one great source of
interest however, which was, to listen to the sleeping talk of my
companion, and I always looked forward to the time when the night
fell and we repaired to our beds. I would lie awake for hours,
listening to his ejaculations and murmured speech, trying in vain to
find out some meaning in what he would say—but I gained little; he
talked of "that woman"—appearing to be constantly with other men,
and muttering about something he had hidden away. One night, when the
moon was shining bright, he sat up in his bed, which, as I have
before said, was on the floor of the cabin, and throwing aside the
feathers upon which he had been lying, scratched the mould away below
them and lifted up a piece of board. After a minute he replaced
everything, and lay down again. He evidently was sleeping during the
whole time. Here, at last, was something to feed my thoughts with. I
had heard him say in his sleep that he had hidden something—this
must be the hiding place. What was it? Perhaps I ought here to
observe that my feelings towards this man were those of positive
dislike, if not hatred; I never had received one kind word or deed
from him, that I could recollect. Harsh and unfeeling towards me,
evidently looking upon me with ill-will, and only suffering me
because I saved him some trouble, and perhaps because he wished to
have a living thing for his companion,—his feelings towards me were
reciprocated by mine towards him. What age I was at the time my
mother died, I know not, but I had some faint recollection of one who
treated me with kindness and caresses, and these recollections became
more forcible in my dreams, when I saw a figure very different from
that of my companion (a female figure) hanging over me or leading me
by the hand. How I used to try to continue those dreams, by closing
my eyes again after I had woke up! And yet I knew not that they had
been brought about by the dim recollection of my infancy; I knew not
that the figure that appeared to me was the shadow of my mother; but
I loved the dreams because I was treated kindly in them.
But a change took place by the hand of Providence. One day, after we
had just laid in our yearly provision of sea birds, I was busy
arranging the skins of the old birds, on the flat rock, for my annual
garment, which was joined together something like a sack, with holes
for the head and arms to pass through; when, as I looked to seaward,
I saw a large white object on the water.
"Look, master," said I, pointing towards it.
"A ship, a ship!" cried my companion.
"Oh," thought I, "that is a ship; I recollect that he said they came
here in a ship." I kept my eyes on her, and she rounded to.
"Is she alive?" inquired I.
"You're a fool," said the man; "come and help me to pile up this
wood that we may make a signal to her.
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