And they have greatly the advantage of us in this
respect. The slender thread of silk or cotton keeps them united
with the small, familiar, gentle interests of life, the continually
operating influences of which do so much for the health of the
character, and carry off what would otherwise be a dangerous
accumulation of morbid sensibility. A vast deal of human sympathy
runs along this electric line, stretching from the throne to the
wicker chair of the humblest seamstress, and keeping high and low
in a species of communion with their kindred beings. Methinks it is
a token of healthy and gentle characteristics, when women of high
thoughts and accomplishments love to sew; especially as they are
never more at home with their own hearts than while so
occupied.
And when the work falls in a woman's lap, of its own accord, and
the needle involuntarily ceases to fly, it is a sign of trouble,
quite as trustworthy as the throb of the heart itself. This was
what happened to Miriam. Even while Donatello stood gazing at her,
she seemed to have forgotten his presence, allowing him to drop out
of her thoughts, and the torn glove to fall from her idle fingers.
Simple as he was, the young man knew by his sympathies that
something was amiss.
"Dear lady, you are sad," said he, drawing close to her.
"It is nothing, Donatello," she replied, resuming her work;
"yes; a little sad, perhaps; but that is not strange for us people
of the ordinary world, especially for women. You are of a
cheerfuller race, my friend, and know nothing of this disease of
sadness. But why do you come into this shadowy room of mine?"
"Why do you make it so shadowy?" asked he.
"We artists purposely exclude sunshine, and all but a partial
light," said Miriam, "because we think it necessary to put
ourselves at odds with Nature before trying to imitate her. That
strikes you very strangely, does it not? But we make very pretty
pictures sometimes with our artfully arranged lights and shadows.
Amuse yourself with some of mine, Donatello, and by and by I shall
be in the mood to begin the portrait we were talking about."
The room had the customary aspect of a painter's studio; one of
those delightful spots that hardly seem to belong to the actual
world, but rather to be the outward type of a poet's haunted
imagination, where there are glimpses, sketches, and half-developed
hints of beings and objects grander and more beautiful than we can
anywhere find in reality. The windows were closed with shutters, or
deeply curtained, except one, which was partly open to a sunless
portion of the sky, admitting only from high upward that partial
light which, with its strongly marked contrast of shadow, is the
first requisite towards seeing objects pictorially. Pencil-drawings
were pinned against the wall or scattered on the tables. Unframed
canvases turned their backs on the spectator, presenting only a
blank to the eye, and churlishly concealing whatever riches of
scenery or human beauty Miriam's skill had depicted on the other
side.
In the obscurest part of the room Donatello was half startled at
perceiving duskily a woman with long dark hair, who threw up her
arms with a wild gesture of tragic despair, and appeared to beckon
him into the darkness along with her.
"Do not be afraid, Donatello," said Miriam, smiling to see him
peering doubtfully into the mysterious dusk. "She means you no
mischief, nor could perpetrate any if she wished it ever so much.
It is a lady of exceedingly pliable disposition; now a heroine of
romance, and now a rustic maid; yet all for show; being created,
indeed, on purpose to wear rich shawls and other garments in a
becoming fashion. This is the true end of her being, although she
pretends to assume the most varied duties and perform many parts in
life, while really the poor puppet has nothing on earth to do. Upon
my word, I am satirical unawares, and seem to be describing nine
women out of ten in the person of my lay-figure. For most purposes
she has the advantage of the sisterhood. Would I were like
her!"
"How it changes her aspect," exclaimed Donatello, "to know that
she is but a jointed figure! When my eyes first fell upon her, I
thought her arms moved, as if beckoning me to help her in some
direful peril."
"Are you often troubled with such sinister freaks of fancy?"
asked Miriam. "I should not have supposed it."
"To tell you the truth, dearest signorina," answered the young
Italian, "I am apt to be fearful in old, gloomy houses, and in the
dark. I love no dark or dusky corners, except it be in a grotto, or
among the thick green leaves of an arbor, or in some nook of the
woods, such as I know many in the neighborhood of my home. Even
there, if a stray sunbeam steal in, the shadow is all the better
for its cheerful glimmer."
"Yes; you are a Faun, you know," said the fair artist, laughing
at the remembrance of the scene of the day before. "But the world
is sadly changed nowadays; grievously changed, poor Donatello,
since those happy times when your race used to dwell in the
Arcadian woods, playing hide and seek with the nymphs in grottoes
and nooks of shrubbery. You have reappeared on earth some centuries
too late."
"I do not understand you now," answered Donatello, looking
perplexed; "only, signorina, I am glad to have my lifetime while
you live; and where you are, be it in cities or fields, I would
fain be there too."
"I wonder whether I ought to allow you to speak in this way,"
said Miriam, looking thoughtfully at him. "Many young women would
think it behooved them to be offended. Hilda would never let you
speak so, I dare say. But he is a mere boy," she added, aside, "a
simple boy, putting his boyish heart to the proof on the first
woman whom he chances to meet. If yonder lay-figure had had the
luck to meet him first, she would have smitten him as deeply as
I."
"Are you angry with me?" asked Donatello dolorously.
"Not in the least," answered Miriam, frankly giving him her
hand. "Pray look over some of these sketches till I have leisure to
chat with you a little. I hardly think I am in spirits enough to
begin your portrait to-day."
Donatello was as gentle and docile as a pet spaniel; as playful,
too, in his general disposition, or saddening with his mistress's
variable mood like that or any other kindly animal which has the
faculty of bestowing its sympathies more completely than men or
women can ever do. Accordingly, as Miriam bade him, he tried to
turn his attention to a great pile and confusion of pen and ink
sketches and pencil drawings which lay tossed together on a table.
As it chanced, however, they gave the poor youth little
delight.
The first that he took up was a very impressive sketch, in which
the artist had jotted down her rough ideas for a picture of Jael
driving the nail through the temples of Sisera. It was dashed off
with remarkable power, and showed a touch or two that were actually
lifelike and deathlike, as if Miriam had been standing by when Jael
gave the first stroke of her murderous hammer, or as if she herself
were Jael, and felt irresistibly impelled to make her bloody
confession in this guise.
Her first conception of the stern Jewess had evidently been that
of perfect womanhood, a lovely form, and a high, heroic face of
lofty beauty; but, dissatisfied either with her own work or the
terrible story itself, Miriam had added a certain wayward quirk of
her pencil, which at once converted the heroine into a vulgar
murderess.
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