She
lives quite alone in her dove-cote; not a friend near her, not one
in Rome, which, you know, is deserted by all but its native
inhabitants. I fear for her health, if she continue long in such
solitude, with despondency preying on her mind. I tell you this,
knowing the interest which the rare beauty of her character has
awakened in you."
"I will go to Rome!" said the sculptor, in great emotion. "Hilda
has never allowed me to manifest more than a friendly regard; but,
at least, she cannot prevent my watching over her at a humble
distance. I will set out this very hour."
"Do not leave us now!" whispered Miriam imploringly, and laying
her hand on his arm. "One moment more! Ah; he has no word for
me!"
"Miriam!" said Donatello.
Though but a single word, and the first that he had spoken, its
tone was a warrant of the sad and tender depth from which it came.
It told Miriam things of infinite importance, and, first of all,
that he still loved her. The sense of their mutual crime had
stunned, but not destroyed, the vitality of his affection; it was
therefore indestructible. That tone, too, bespoke an altered and
deepened character; it told of a vivified intellect, and of
spiritual instruction that had come through sorrow and remorse; so
that instead of the wild boy, the thing of sportive, animal nature,
the sylvan Faun, here was now the man of feeling and
intelligence.
She turned towards him, while his voice still reverberated in
the depths of her soul.
"You have called me!" said she.
"Because my deepest heart has need of you!" he replied.
"Forgive, Miriam, the coldness, the hardness with which I parted
from you! I was bewildered with strange horror and gloom."
"Alas! and it was I that brought it on you," said she. "What
repentance, what self-sacrifice, can atone for that infinite wrong?
There was something so sacred in the innocent and joyous life which
you were leading! A happy person is such an unaccustomed and holy
creature in this sad world! And, encountering so rare a being, and
gifted with the power of sympathy with his sunny life, it was my
doom, mine, to bring him within the limits of sinful, sorrowful
mortality! Bid me depart, Donatello! Fling me off! No good, through
my agency, can follow upon such a mighty evil!"
"Miriam," said he, "our lot lies together. Is it not so? Tell
me, in Heaven's name, if it be otherwise."
Donatello's conscience was evidently perplexed with doubt,
whether the communion of a crime, such as they two were jointly
stained with, ought not to stifle all the instinctive motions of
their hearts, impelling them one towards the other. Miriam, on the
other hand, remorsefully questioned with herself whether the
misery, already accruing from her influence, should not warn her to
withdraw from his path. In this momentous interview, therefore, two
souls were groping for each other in the darkness of guilt and
sorrow, and hardly were bold enough to grasp the cold hands that
they found.
The sculptor stood watching the scene with earnest sympathy.
"It seems irreverent," said he, at length; "intrusive, if not
irreverent, for a third person to thrust himself between the two
solely concerned in a crisis like the present. Yet, possibly as a
bystander, though a deeply interested one, I may discern somewhat
of truth that is hidden from you both; nay, at least interpret or
suggest some ideas which you might not so readily convey to each
other."
"Speak!" said Miriam. "We confide in you." "Speak!" said
Donatello. "You are true and upright."
"I well know," rejoined Kenyon, "that I shall not succeed in
uttering the few, deep words which, in this matter, as in all
others, include the absolute truth. But here, Miriam, is one whom a
terrible misfortune has begun to educate; it has taken him, and
through your agency, out of a wild and happy state, which, within
circumscribed limits, gave him joys that he cannot elsewhere find
on earth. On his behalf, you have incurred a responsibility which
you cannot fling aside. And here, Donatello, is one whom Providence
marks out as intimately connected with your destiny. The mysterious
process, by which our earthly life instructs us for another state
of being, was begun for you by her. She has rich gifts of heart and
mind, a suggestive power, a magnetic influence, a sympathetic
knowledge, which, wisely and religiously exercised, are what your
condition needs. She possesses what you require, and, with utter
self devotion, will use it for your good. The bond betwixt you,
therefore, is a true one, and never—except by Heaven's own
act—should be rent asunder."
"Ah; he has spoken the truth!" cried Donatello, grasping
Miriam's hand.
"The very truth, dear friend," cried Miriam.
"But take heed," resumed the sculptor, anxious not to violate
the integrity of his own conscience, "take heed; for you love one
another, and yet your bond is twined with such black threads that
you must never look upon it as identical with the ties that unite
other loving souls. It is for mutual support; it is for one
another's final good; it is for effort, for sacrifice, but not for
earthly happiness. If such be your motive, believe me, friends, it
were better to relinquish each other's hands at this sad moment.
There would be no holy sanction on your wedded life."
"None," said Donatello, shuddering. "We know it well."
"None," repeated Miriam, also shuddering. "United—miserably
entangled with me, rather—by a bond of guilt, our union might be
for eternity, indeed, and most intimate;—but, through all that
endless duration, I should be conscious of his horror."
"Not for earthly bliss, therefore," said Kenyon, "but for mutual
elevation, and encouragement towards a severe and painful life, you
take each other's hands. And if, out of toil, sacrifice, prayer,
penitence, and earnest effort towards right things, there comes at
length a sombre and thoughtful, happiness, taste it, and thank
Heaven! So that you live not for it,—so that it be a wayside
flower, springing along a path that leads to higher ends,—it will
be Heaven's gracious gift, and a token that it recognizes your
union here below."
"Have you no more to say?" asked Miriam earnestly. "There is
matter of sorrow and lofty consolation strangely mingled in your
words."
"Only this, dear Miriam," said the sculptor; "if ever in your
lives the highest duty should require from either of you the
sacrifice of the other, meet the occasion without shrinking. This
is all."
While Kenyon spoke, Donatello had evidently taken in the ideas
which he propounded, and had ennobled them by the sincerity of his
reception. His aspect unconsciously assumed a dignity, which,
elevating his former beauty, accorded with the change that had long
been taking place in his interior self.
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