There is
no one want or weakness of human nature for which Catholicism will
own itself without a remedy; cordials, certainly, it possesses in
abundance, and sedatives in inexhaustible variety, and what may
once have been genuine medicaments, though a little the worse for
long keeping.
To do it justice, Catholicism is such a miracle of fitness for
its own ends, many of which might seem to be admirable ones, that
it is difficult to imagine it a contrivance of mere man. Its mighty
machinery was forged and put together, not on middle earth, but
either above or below. If there were but angels to work it, instead
of the very different class of engineers who now manage its cranks
and safety valves, the system would soon vindicate the dignity and
holiness of its origin.
Hilda had heretofore made many pilgrimages among the churches of
Rome, for the sake of wondering at their gorgeousness. Without a
glimpse at these palaces of worship, it is impossible to imagine
the magnificence of the religion that reared them. Many of them
shine with burnished gold. They glow with pictures. Their walls,
columns, and arches seem a quarry of precious stones, so beautiful
and costly are the marbles with which they are inlaid. Their
pavements are often a mosaic, of rare workmanship. Around their
lofty cornices hover flights of sculptured angels; and within the
vault of the ceiling and the swelling interior of the dome, there
are frescos of such brilliancy, and wrought with so artful a
perspective, that the sky, peopled with sainted forms, appears to
be opened only a little way above the spectator. Then there are
chapels, opening from the side aisles and transepts, decorated by
princes for their own burial places, and as shrines for their
especial saints. In these, the splendor of the entire edifice is
intensified and gathered to a focus. Unless words were gems, that
would flame with many-colored light upon the page, and throw thence
a tremulous glimmer into the reader's eyes, it were wain to attempt
a description of a princely chapel.
Restless with her trouble, Hilda now entered upon another
pilgrimage among these altars and shrines. She climbed the hundred
steps of the Ara Coeli; she trod the broad, silent nave of St. John
Lateran; she stood in the Pantheon, under the round opening in the
dome, through which the blue sunny sky still gazes down, as it used
to gaze when there were Roman deities in the antique niches. She
went into every church that rose before her, but not now to wonder
at its magnificence, when she hardly noticed more than if it had
been the pine-built interior of a New England meeting-house.
She went—and it was a dangerous errand—to observe how closely
and comfortingly the popish faith applied itself to all human
occasions. It was impossible to doubt that multitudes of people
found their spiritual advantage in it, who would find none at all
in our own formless mode of worship; which, besides, so far as the
sympathy of prayerful souls is concerned, can be enjoyed only at
stated and too unfrequent periods. But here, whenever the hunger
for divine nutriment came upon the soul, it could on the instant be
appeased. At one or another altar, the incense was forever
ascending; the mass always being performed, and carrying upward
with it the devotion of such as had not words for their own prayer.
And yet, if the worshipper had his individual petition to offer,
his own heart-secret to whisper below his breath, there were divine
auditors ever ready to receive it from his lips; and what
encouraged him still more, these auditors had not always been
divine, but kept, within their heavenly memories, the tender
humility of a human experience. Now a saint in heaven, but once a
man on earth.
Hilda saw peasants, citizens, soldiers, nobles, women with bare
heads, ladies in their silks, entering the churches individually,
kneeling for moments or for hours, and directing their inaudible
devotions to the shrine of some saint of their own choice. In his
hallowed person, they felt themselves possessed of an own friend in
heaven. They were too humble to approach the Deity directly.
Conscious of their unworthiness, they asked the mediation of their
sympathizing patron, who, on the score of his ancient martyrdom,
and after many ages of celestial life, might venture to talk with
the Divine Presence, almost as friend with friend. Though dumb
before its Judge, even despair could speak, and pour out the misery
of its soul like water, to an advocate so wise to comprehend the
case, and eloquent to plead it, and powerful to win pardon whatever
were the guilt. Hilda witnessed what she deemed to be an example of
this species of confidence between a young man and his saint. He
stood before a shrine, writhing, wringing his hands, contorting his
whole frame in an agony of remorseful recollection, but finally
knelt down to weep and pray. If this youth had been a Protestant,
he would have kept all that torture pent up in his heart, and let
it burn there till it seared him into indifference.
Often and long, Hilda lingered before the shrines and chapels of
the Virgin, and departed from them with reluctant steps. Here,
perhaps, strange as it may seem, her delicate appreciation of art
stood her in good stead, and lost Catholicism a convert. If the
painter had represented Mary with a heavenly face, poor Hilda was
now in the very mood to worship her, and adopt the faith in which
she held so elevated a position. But she saw that it was merely the
flattered portrait of an earthly beauty; the wife, at best, of the
artist; or, it might be, a peasant girl of the Campagna, or some
Roman princess, to whom he desired to pay his court. For love, or
some even less justifiable motive, the old painter had apotheosized
these women; he thus gained for them, as far as his skill would go,
not only the meed of immortality, but the privilege of presiding
over Christian altars, and of being worshipped with far holier
fervors than while they dwelt on earth. Hilda's fine sense of the
fit and decorous could not be betrayed into kneeling at such a
shrine.
She never found just the virgin mother whom she needed.
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