Here it
was an earthly mother, worshipping the earthly baby in her lap, as
any and every mother does, from Eve's time downward. In another
picture, there was a dim sense, shown in the mother's face, of some
divine quality in the child. In a third, the artist seemed to have
had a higher perception, and had striven hard to shadow out the
Virgin's joy at bringing the Saviour into the world, and her awe
and love, inextricably mingled, of the little form which she
pressed against her bosom. So far was good. But still, Hilda looked
for something more; a face of celestial beauty, but human as well
as heavenly, and with the shadow of past grief upon it; bright with
immortal youth, yet matronly and motherly; and endowed with a
queenly dignity, but infinitely tender, as the highest and deepest
attribute of her divinity.
"Ah," thought Hilda to herself, "why should not there be a woman
to listen to the prayers of women? A mother in heaven for all
motherless girls like me? In all God's thought and care for us, can
he have withheld this boon, which our weakness so much needs?"
Oftener than to the other churches, she wandered into St.
Peter's. Within its vast limits, she thought, and beneath the sweep
of its great dome, there should be space for all forms of Christian
truth; room both for the faithful and the heretic to kneel; due
help for every creature's spiritual want.
Hilda had not always been adequately impressed by the grandeur
of this mighty cathedral. When she first lifted the heavy leathern
curtain, at one of the doors, a shadowy edifice in her imagination
had been dazzled out of sight by the reality. Her preconception of
St. Peter's was a structure of no definite outline, misty in its
architecture, dim and gray and huge, stretching into an
interminable perspective, and overarched by a dome like the cloudy
firmament. Beneath that vast breadth and height, as she had fancied
them, the personal man might feel his littleness, and the soul
triumph in its immensity. So, in her earlier visits, when the
compassed splendor Of the actual interior glowed before her eyes,
she had profanely called it a great prettiness; a gay piece of
cabinet work, on a Titanic scale; a jewel casket, marvellously
magnified.
This latter image best pleased her fancy; a casket, all inlaid
in the inside with precious stones of various hue, so that there
Should not be a hair's-breadth of the small interior unadorned with
its resplendent gem. Then, conceive this minute wonder of a mosaic
box, increased to the magnitude of a cathedral, without losing the
intense lustre of its littleness, but all its petty glory striving
to be sublime. The magic transformation from the minute to the vast
has not been so cunningly effected but that the rich adornment
still counteracts the impression of space and loftiness. The
spectator is more sensible of its limits than of its extent.
Until after many visits, Hilda continued to mourn for that dim,
illimitable interior, which with her eyes shut she had seen from
childhood, but which vanished at her first glimpse through the
actual door. Her childish vision seemed preferable to the cathedral
which Michael Angelo, and all the great architects, had built;
because, of the dream edifice, she had said, "How vast it is!"
while of the real St. Peter's she could only say, "After all, it is
not so immense!" Besides, such as the church is, it can nowhere be
made visible at one glance. It stands in its own way. You see an
aisle, or a transept; you see the nave, or the tribune; but, on
account of its ponderous piers and other obstructions, it is only
by this fragmentary process that you get an idea of the
cathedral.
There is no answering such objections. The great church smiles
calmly upon its critics, and, for all response, says, "Look at me!"
and if you still murmur for the loss of your shadowy perspective,
there comes no reply, save, "Look at me!" in endless repetition, as
the one thing to be said. And, after looking many times, with long
intervals between, you discover that the cathedral has gradually
extended itself over the whole compass of your idea; it covers all
the site of your visionary temple, and has room for its cloudy
pinnacles beneath the dome.
One afternoon, as Hilda entered St. Peter's in sombre mood, its
interior beamed upon her with all the effect of a new creation. It
seemed an embodiment of whatever the imagination could conceive, or
the heart desire, as a magnificent, comprehensive, majestic symbol
of religious faith. All splendor was included within its verge, and
there was space for all. She gazed with delight even at the
multiplicity of ornament. She was glad at the cherubim that
fluttered upon the pilasters, and of the marble doves, hovering
unexpectedly, with green olive-branches of precious stones. She
could spare nothing, now, of the manifold magnificence that had
been lavished, in a hundred places, richly enough to have made
world-famous shrines in any other church, but which here melted
away into the vast sunny breadth, and were of no separate account.
Yet each contributed its little all towards the grandeur of the
whole.
She would not have banished one of those grim popes, who sit
each over his own tomb, scattering cold benedictions out of their
marble hands; nor a single frozen sister of the Allegoric family,
to whom—as, like hired mourners at an English funeral, it costs
them no wear and tear of heart—is assigned the office of weeping
for the dead. If you choose to see these things, they present
themselves; if you deem them unsuitable and out of place, they
vanish, individually, but leave their life upon the walls.
The pavement! it stretched out illimitably, a plain of
many-colored marble, where thousands of worshippers might kneel
together, and shadowless angels tread among them without brushing
their heavenly garments against those earthly ones. The roof! the
dome! Rich, gorgeous, filled with sunshine, cheerfully sublime, and
fadeless after centuries, those lofty depths seemed to translate
the heavens to mortal comprehension, and help the spirit upward to
a yet higher and wider sphere. Must not the faith, that built this
matchless edifice, and warmed, illuminated, and overflowed from it,
include whatever can satisfy human aspirations at the loftiest, or
minister to human necessity at the sorest? If Religion had a
material home, was it not here?
As the scene which we but faintly suggest shone calmly before
the New England maiden at her entrance, she moved, as if by very
instinct, to one of the vases of holy water, upborne against a
column by two mighty cherubs. Hilda dipped her fingers, and had
almost signed the cross upon her breast, but forbore, and trembled,
while shaking the water from her finger-tips.
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