But the humble brother said plainly that he was
unworthy to touch a brush, that his was contaminated, that with
toil and great sacrifice must he first purify his spirit in order
to render himself fit to undertake such a task. He increased the
rigours of monastic life for himself as much as possible. At last,
even they became insufficient, and he retired, with the approval of
the prior, into the desert, in order to be quite alone. There he
constructed himself a cell from branches of trees, ate only
uncooked roots, dragged about a stone from place to place, stood in
one spot with his hands lifted to heaven, from the rising until the
going down of the sun, reciting prayers without cessation. In this
manner did he for several years exhaust his body, invigorating it,
at the same time, with the strength of fervent prayer.
"At length, one day he returned to the cloister, and said firmly
to the prior, 'Now I am ready. If God wills, I will finish my
task.' The subject he selected was the Birth of Christ. A whole
year he sat over it, without leaving his cell, barely sustaining
himself with coarse food, and praying incessantly. At the end of
the year the picture was ready. It was a really wonderful work.
Neither prior nor brethren knew much about painting; but all were
struck with the marvellous holiness of the figures. The expression
of reverent humility and gentleness in the face of the Holy Mother,
as she bent over the Child; the deep intelligence in the eyes of
the Holy Child, as though he saw something afar; the triumphant
silence of the Magi, amazed by the Divine Miracle, as they bowed at
his feet: and finally, the indescribable peace which emanated from
the whole picture—all this was presented with such strength and
beauty, that the impression it made was magical. All the brethren
threw themselves on their knees before it; and the prior, deeply
affected, exclaimed, 'No, it is impossible for any artist, with the
assistance only of earthly art, to produce such a picture: a holy,
divine power has guided thy brush, and the blessing of Heaven
rested upon thy labour!'
"By that time I had completed my education at the academy,
received the gold medal, and with it the joyful hope of a journey
to Italy—the fairest dream of a twenty-year-old artist. It only
remained for me to take leave of my father, from whom I had been
separated for twelve years. I confess that even his image had long
faded from my memory. I had heard somewhat of his grim saintliness,
and rather expected to meet a hermit of rough exterior, a stranger
to everything in the world, except his cell and his prayers, worn
out, tried up, by eternal fasting and penance. But how great was my
surprise when a handsome old man stood before me! No traces of
exhaustion were visible on his countenance: it beamed with the
light of a heavenly joy. His beard, white as snow, and his thin,
almost transparent hair of the same silvery hue, fell picturesquely
upon his breast, and upon the folds of his black gown, even to the
rope with which his poor monastic garb was girded. But most
surprising to me of all was to hear from his mouth such words and
thoughts about art as, I confess, I long shall bear in mind, and I
sincerely wish that all my comrades would do the same.
"'I expected you, my son,' he said, when I approached for his
blessing. 'The path awaits you in which your life is henceforth to
flow. Your path is pure—desert it not. You have talent: talent is
the most priceless of God's gifts—destroy it not. Search out,
subject all things to your brush; but in all see that you find the
hidden soul, and most of all, strive to attain to the grand secret
of creation. Blessed is the elect one who masters that! There is
for him no mean object in nature. In lowly themes the artist
creator is as great as in great ones: in the despicable there is
nothing for him to despise, for it passes through the purifying
fire of his mind. An intimation of God's heavenly paradise is
contained for the artist in art, and by that alone is it higher
than all else. But by as much as triumphant rest is grander than
every earthly emotion, by so much is the lofty creation of art
higher than everything else on earth. Sacrifice everything to it,
and love it with passion—not with the passion breathing with
earthly desire, but a peaceful, heavenly passion. It cannot plant
discord in the spirit, but ascends, like a resounding prayer,
eternally to God. But there are moments, dark moments—' He paused,
and I observed that his bright face darkened, as though some cloud
crossed it for a moment. 'There is one incident of my life,' he
said. 'Up to this moment, I cannot understand what that terrible
being was of whom I painted a likeness.
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