“It’s Grandfather; he knows I’ve got his stick. He wants it!” On the
heels of this flashed instantly another amazing certainty. “He sleeps
in there.
He’s having dreams. That’s what being dead means.”
His first impulse, then, took the form of, “I must let Father know;
it’ll make him burst for joy”; but his second was for himself—to
finish his adventure. And it was this, naturally enough, that gained
the day. He could tell his father later. His first duty was plainly to
go through the door into the Other Wing. He must give the stick back
to its owner. He must hand it back.
The test of will and character came
now. Tim had imagination, and so knew the meaning of fear; but there
was nothing craven in him. He could howl and scream and stamp like any
other person of his age when the occasion called for such behaviour,
but such occasions were due to temper roused by a thwarted will, and
the histrionics were half “pretended” to produce a calculated effect.
There was no one to thwart his will at present. He also knew how to be
afraid of Nothing, to be afraid without ostensible cause, that
is—which was merely “nerves.” He could have “the shudders” with the
best of them.
But, when a real thing faced him, Tim’s character emerged to meet
it. He would clench his hands, brace his muscles, set his teeth—and
wish to heaven he was bigger. But he would not flinch. Being
imaginative, he lived the worst a dozen times before it happened, yet
in the final crash he stood up like a man. He had that highest
pluck—the courage of a sensitive temperament.
And at this particular juncture, somewhat ticklish for a boy of
eight or nine, it did not fail him.
He lifted the cane and pushed the swinging door wide open. Then he
walked through it—into the Other Wing.
The green baize door swung to behind him; he was even sufficiently
master of himself to turn and close it with a steady hand, because he
did not care to hear the series of muffled thuds its lessening swings
would cause. But he realised clearly his position, knew he was doing a
tremendous thing.
Holding the cane between fingers very tightly clenched, he advanced
bravely along the corridor that stretched before him. And all fear
left him from that moment, replaced, it seemed, by a mild and
exquisite surprise. His footsteps made no sound, he walked on air;
instead of darkness, or the twilight he expected, a diffused and
gentle light that seemed like the silver on the lawn when a half-moon
sails a cloudless sky, lay everywhere. He knew his way, moreover, knew
exactly where he was and whither he was going. The corridor was as
familiar to him as the floor of his own bedroom; he recognised the
shape and length of it; it agreed exactly with the map he had
constructed long ago. Though he had never, to the best of his
knowledge, entered it before, he knew with intimacy its every detail.
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