“I don’t think there will be any difficulty
about that. Sit down again, Harry. And now, Dorian, get up on the platform, and
don’t move about too much, or pay any attention to what Lord Henry says.
He has a very bad influence over all his friends, with the single exception of
myself.”
Dorian Gray stepped up on the dais with the air of a young Greek martyr, and
made a little moue of discontent to Lord Henry, to whom
he had rather taken a fancy. He was so unlike Basil. They made a delightful
contrast. And he had such a beautiful voice. After a few moments he said to
him, “Have you really a very bad influence, Lord Henry? As bad as Basil
says?”
“There is no such thing as a good influence, Mr. Gray. All influence
is immoral – immoral from the scientific point of view.”
“Why?”
“Because to influence a person is to give him one’s own soul. He
does not think his natural thoughts, or burn with his natural passions. His
virtues are not real to him. His sins, if there are such things as sins, are
borrowed. He becomes an echo of some one else’s music, an actor of a part
that has not been written for him. The aim of life is self-development. To
realize one’s nature perfectly – that is what each of us is here
for. People are afraid of themselves, nowadays. They have forgotten the highest
of all duties, the duty that one owes to one’s self. Of course, they are
charitable. They feed the hungry and clothe the beggar. But their own souls
starve, and are naked. Courage has gone out of our race. Perhaps we never
really had it. The terror of society, which is the basis of morals, the terror
of God, which is the secret of religion – these are the two things that
govern us. And yet—”
“Just turn your head a little more to the right, Dorian, like a good
boy,” said the painter, deep in his work and conscious only that a look
had come into the lad’s face that he had never seen there before.
“And yet,” continued Lord Henry, in his low, musical voice, and
with that graceful wave of the hand that was always so characteristic of him,
and that he had even in his Eton days, “I believe that if one man were to
live out his life fully and completely, were to give form to every feeling,
expression to every thought, reality to every dream – I believe that the
world would gain such a fresh impulse of joy that we would forget all the
maladies of mediaevalism, and return to the Hellenic ideal – to something
finer, richer than the Hellenic ideal, it may be. But the bravest man amongst
us is afraid of himself. The mutilation of the savage has its tragic survival
in the self-denial that mars our lives. We are punished for our refusals. Every
impulse that we strive to strangle broods in the mind and poisons us. The body
sins once, and has done with its sin, for action is a mode of purification.
Nothing remains then but the recollection of a pleasure, or the luxury of a
regret. The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it.
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