And, yet, what was there to be afraid
of? He was not a schoolboy or a girl. It was absurd to be frightened.
“Let us go and sit in the shade,” said Lord Henry. “Parker
has brought out the drinks, and if you stay any longer in this glare, you will
be quite spoiled, and Basil will never paint you again. You really must not
allow yourself to become sunburnt. It would be unbecoming.”
“What can it matter?” cried Dorian Gray, laughing, as he sat
down on the seat at the end of the garden.
“It should matter everything to you, Mr. Gray.”
“Why?”
“Because you have the most marvellous youth, and youth is the one
thing worth having.”
“I don’t feel that, Lord Henry.”
“No, you don’t feel it now. Some day, when you are old and
wrinkled and ugly, when thought has seared your forehead with its lines, and
passion branded your lips with its hideous fires, you will feel it, you will
feel it terribly. Now, wherever you go, you charm the world. Will it always be
so? . . . You have a wonderfully beautiful face, Mr. Gray.
Don’t frown. You have. And beauty is a form of genius – is higher,
indeed, than genius, as it needs no explanation. It is of the great facts of
the world, like sunlight, or spring-time, or the reflection in dark waters of
that silver shell we call the moon. It cannot be questioned. It has its divine
right of sovereignty. It makes princes of those who have it. You smile? Ah!
when you have lost it you won’t smile. . . . People say
sometimes that beauty is only superficial. That may be so, but at least it is
not so superficial as thought is. To me, beauty is the wonder of wonders. It is
only shallow people who do not judge by appearances. The true mystery of the
world is the visible, not the invisible. . . . Yes, Mr. Gray, the
gods have been good to you. But what the gods give they quickly take away. You
have only a few years in which to live really, perfectly, and fully. When your
youth goes, your beauty will go with it, and then you will suddenly discover
that there are no triumphs left for you, or have to content yourself with those
mean triumphs that the memory of your past will make more bitter than defeats.
Every month as it wanes brings you nearer to something dreadful.
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