Time is
jealous of you, and wars against your lilies and your roses. You will become
sallow, and hollow-cheeked, and dull-eyed. You will suffer horribly.
. . . Ah! realize your youth while you have it. Don’t squander
the gold of your days, listening to the tedious, trying to improve the hopeless
failure, or giving away your life to the ignorant, the common, and the vulgar.
These are the sickly aims, the false ideals, of our age. Live! Live the
wonderful life that is in you! Let nothing be lost upon you. Be always
searching for new sensations. Be afraid of nothing. . . . A new
Hedonism – that is what our century wants. You might be its visible
symbol. With your personality there is nothing you could not do. The world
belongs to you for a season. . . . The moment I met you I saw that
you were quite unconscious of what you really are, of what you really might be.
There was so much in you that charmed me that I felt I must tell you something
about yourself. I thought how tragic it would be if you were wasted. For there
is such a little time that your youth will last – such a little time. The
common hill-flowers wither, but they blossom again. The laburnum will be as
yellow next June as it is now. In a month there will be purple stars on the
clematis, and year after year the green night of its leaves will hold its
purple stars. But we never get back our youth. The pulse of joy that beats in
us at twenty becomes sluggish. Our limbs fail, our senses rot. We degenerate
into hideous puppets, haunted by the memory of the passions of which we were
too much afraid, and the exquisite temptations that we had not the courage to
yield to. Youth! Youth! There is absolutely nothing in the world but
youth!”
Dorian Gray listened, open-eyed and wondering. The spray of lilac fell from
his hand upon the gravel. A furry bee came and buzzed round it for a moment.
Then it began to scramble all over the oval stellated globe of the tiny
blossoms. He watched it with that strange interest in trivial things that we
try to develop when things of high import make us afraid, or when we are
stirred by some new emotion for which we cannot find expression, or when some
thought that terrifies us lays sudden siege to the brain and calls on us to
yield. After a time the bee flew away. He saw it creeping into the stained
trumpet of a Tyrian convolvulus.
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