For a door in the screen had been opened, and there came forth an old
man, all in shining white, on whose head was a gold crown. Before him went one
who rang the bell; on each side there were young men with torches; and in his
hands he bore the Mystery of Mysteries
wrapped about in veils of gold and of all colours, so that it might not be
discerned; and so he passed before the screen, and the light of heaven burst
forth from that which he held. Then he entered in again by a door that was on
the other side, and the Holy Things were hidden.
And
Ambrose heard from within an awful voice and the words:
Woe and great sorrow are on him, for he hath
looked unworthily into the Tremendous Mysteries, and on the Secret Glory which
is hidden from the Holy Angels.
"Poetry
is the only possible way of saying anything that is worth saying at all."
This was an axiom that, in later years, Ambrose Meyrick's friends were forced
to hear at frequent intervals. He would go on to say that he used the term
poetry in its most liberal sense, including in it all mystic or symbolic prose,
all painting and statuary that was worthy to be called art, all great
architecture, and all true music. He meant, it is to be presumed, that the
mysteries can only be conveyed by symbols; unfortunately, however, he did not
always make it quite clear that this was the proposition that he intended to
utter, and thus offence was sometimes given—as, for example, to the scientific
gentleman who had been brought to Meyrick's rooms and went away early,
wondering audibly and sarcastically whether "your clever friend"
wanted to metrify biology and set Euclid to Bach's Organ Fugues.
However,
the Great Axiom (as he called it) was the justification that he put forward in
defence of the notes on which the previous section is based.
"Of
course," he would say, "the symbolism is inadequate; but that is the
defect of speech of any kind when you have once ventured beyond the
multiplication table and the jargon of the Stock Exchange. Inadequacy of
expression is merely a minor part of the great tragedy of humanity. Only an ass
thinks that he has succeeded in uttering the perfect content of his thought
without either excess or defect."
"Then,
again," he might go on, "the symbolism would very likely be
misleading to a great many people; but what is one to do? I believe many good
people find Turner mad and Dickens tiresome. And if the great sometimes fail,
what hope is there for the little? We cannot all be—well—popular novelists of
the day."
Of
course, the notes in question were made many years after the event they
commemorate; they were the man's translation of all the wonderful and
inexpressible emotions of the boy; and, as Meyrick puts it, many
"words" (or symbols) are used in them which were unknown to the lad
of fifteen.
"Nevertheless,"
he said, "they are the best words that I can find."
As
has been said, the Old Grange was a large, roomy house; a space could easily
have been found for half a dozen more boys if the High Usher had cared to be
bothered with them. As it was, it was a favour to be at Horbury's, and there
was usually some personal reason for admission. Pelly, for example, was the son of an old friend;
Bates was a distant cousin; and Rawson's father was the master of a small Grammar
School in the north with which certain ancestral Horburys were somehow
connected. The Old Grange was a fine large Caroline house; it had a grave front
of red brick, mellowed with age, tier upon tier of tall, narrow windows, flush
with the walls, and a high-pitched, red-tiled roof. Above the front door was a
rich and curious wooden pent-house, deeply carven; and within there was plenty
of excellent panelling, and some good mantelpieces, added, it would seem,
somewhere about the Adam period. Horbury had seen its solid and comfortable
merits and had bought the freehold years before at a great bargain. The school
was increasing rapidly even in those days, and he knew that before long more
houses would be required. If he left Lupton he would be able to let the Old
Grange easily—he might almost put it up for auction—and the rent would
represent a return of fifty per cent on his investment. Many of the rooms were
large; of a size out of all proportion to the boys' needs, and at a very
trifling expense partitions might be made and the nine or ten available rooms
be subdivided into studies for twenty or even twenty-five boys. Nature had
gifted the High Usher with a careful, provident mind in all things, both great
and small; and it is but fair to add that on his leaving Lupton for Wareham he found his anticipations more than
justified. To this day Charles Horbury, his nephew, a high Government official,
draws a comfortable income from his uncle's most prudent investment, and the
house easily holds its twenty-five boys. Rainy, who took the
place from Horbury, was an ingenious fellow and hit upon a capital plan for
avoiding the expense of making new windows for some of the subdivided studies.
After thoughtful consideration he caused the wooden partitions which were put
up to stop short of the ceiling by four inches, and by this device the study
with a window lighted the study that had none; and, as Rainy explained to some
of the parents, a diffused light was really better for the eyes than a direct
one.
In
the old days, when Ambrose Meyrick was being made a man of, the four boys
"rattled," as it were, in the big house. They were scattered about in
odd corners, remote from each other, and it seemed from everybody else.
Meyrick's room was the most isolated of any, but it was also the most
comfortable in winter, since it was over the kitchen, to the extreme left of
the house. This part, which was hidden from the road by the boughs of a great
cedar, was an after-thought, a Georgian addition in grey brick, and rose only to
two stories, and in the one furnished room out of the three or four over the
kitchen and offices slept Ambrose. He wished his days could be as quiet and
retired as his nights. He loved the shadows that were about his bed even on the
brightest mornings in summer; for the cedar boughs were dense, and ivy had been
allowed to creep about the panes of the window; so the light entered dim and
green, filtered through the dark boughs and the ivy tendrils.
Here,
then, after the hour of ten each night, he dwelt secure. Now and again Mr.
Horbury would pay nocturnal surprise visits to see that all lights were out;
but, happily, the stairs at the end of the passage, being old and badly fitted,
gave out a succession of cracks like pistol shots if the softest foot was set
on them. It was simple, therefore, on hearing the first of these reports, to
extinguish the candle in the small secret lantern (held warily so that no gleam
of light should appear from under the door) and to conceal the lantern under
the bed-clothes. One wetted one's finger and pinched at the flame, so there was
no smell of the expiring snuff, and the lantern slide was carefully drawn to
guard against the possibility of suspicious grease-marks on the linen. It was
perfect; and old Horbury's visits, which were rare enough, had no terrors for
Ambrose.
So
that night, while the venom of the cane still rankled in his body, though it
had ceased to disturb his mind, instead of going to bed at once, according to
the regulations, he sat for a while on his box seeking a clue in a maze of odd
fancies and conceits. He took off his clothes and wrapped his aching body in
the rug from the bed, and presently, blowing out the official paraffin lamp, he
lit his candle, ready at the first warning creak on the stairs to douse the
glim and leap between the sheets.
Odd
enough were his first cogitations. He was thinking how very sorry he was to
have hit Pelly that savage blow and to have endangered
Rawson's eyesight by the hard boards of the dictionary! This was eccentric, for
he had endured from those two young Apaches every extremity of unpleasantness
for upwards of a couple of years. Pelly was
not by any means an evil lad: he was stupid and beefy within and without, and
the great Public School system was transmuting him, in the proper course and by
the proper steps, into one of those Brave Average Boobies whom Meyrick used to
rail against afterwards.
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