He had told me stories about the catacombs and about Napoleon
Bonaparte, and he had explained to me the meaning of the different
ceremonies of the Mass and of the different vestments worn by the priest.
Sometimes he had amused himself by putting difficult questions to me,
asking me what one should do in certain circumstances or whether such and
such sins were mortal or venial or only imperfections. His questions
showed me how complex and mysterious were certain institutions of the
Church which I had always regarded as the simplest acts. The duties of the
priest towards the Eucharist and towards the secrecy of the confessional
seemed so grave to me that I wondered how anybody had ever found in
himself the courage to undertake them; and I was not surprised when he
told me that the fathers of the Church had written books as thick as the
Post Office Directory and as closely printed as the law notices in the
newspaper, elucidating all these intricate questions. Often when I thought
of this I could make no answer or only a very foolish and halting one upon
which he used to smile and nod his head twice or thrice. Sometimes he used
to put me through the responses of the Mass which he had made me learn by
heart; and, as I pattered, he used to smile pensively and nod his head,
now and then pushing huge pinches of snuff up each nostril alternately.
When he smiled he used to uncover his big discoloured teeth and let his
tongue lie upon his lower lip—a habit which had made me feel uneasy
in the beginning of our acquaintance before I knew him well.
As I walked along in the sun I remembered old Cotter's words and tried to
remember what had happened afterwards in the dream. I remembered that I
had noticed long velvet curtains and a swinging lamp of antique fashion. I
felt that I had been very far away, in some land where the customs were
strange—in Persia, I thought.... But I could not remember the end of
the dream.
In the evening my aunt took me with her to visit the house of mourning. It
was after sunset; but the window-panes of the houses that looked to the
west reflected the tawny gold of a great bank of clouds. Nannie received
us in the hall; and, as it would have been unseemly to have shouted at
her, my aunt shook hands with her for all. The old woman pointed upwards
interrogatively and, on my aunt's nodding, proceeded to toil up the narrow
staircase before us, her bowed head being scarcely above the level of the
banister-rail. At the first landing she stopped and beckoned us forward
encouragingly towards the open door of the dead-room. My aunt went in and
the old woman, seeing that I hesitated to enter, began to beckon to me
again repeatedly with her hand.
I went in on tiptoe. The room through the lace end of the blind was
suffused with dusky golden light amid which the candles looked like pale
thin flames. He had been coffined. Nannie gave the lead and we three knelt
down at the foot of the bed. I pretended to pray but I could not gather my
thoughts because the old woman's mutterings distracted me. I noticed how
clumsily her skirt was hooked at the back and how the heels of her cloth
boots were trodden down all to one side. The fancy came to me that the old
priest was smiling as he lay there in his coffin.
But no. When we rose and went up to the head of the bed I saw that he was
not smiling. There he lay, solemn and copious, vested as for the altar,
his large hands loosely retaining a chalice. His face was very truculent,
grey and massive, with black cavernous nostrils and circled by a scanty
white fur. There was a heavy odour in the room—the flowers.
We blessed ourselves and came away. In the little room downstairs we found
Eliza seated in his arm-chair in state. I groped my way towards my usual
chair in the corner while Nannie went to the sideboard and brought out a
decanter of sherry and some wine-glasses. She set these on the table and
invited us to take a little glass of wine. Then, at her sister's bidding,
she filled out the sherry into the glasses and passed them to us. She
pressed me to take some cream crackers also but I declined because I
thought I would make too much noise eating them. She seemed to be somewhat
disappointed at my refusal and went over quietly to the sofa where she sat
down behind her sister. No one spoke: we all gazed at the empty fireplace.
My aunt waited until Eliza sighed and then said:
"Ah, well, he's gone to a better world."
Eliza sighed again and bowed her head in assent.
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