We followed him with our eyes and saw that when he had gone on for
perhaps fifty paces he turned about and began to retrace his steps. He
walked towards us very slowly, always tapping the ground with his stick,
so slowly that I thought he was looking for something in the grass.
He stopped when he came level with us and bade us good-day. We answered
him and he sat down beside us on the slope slowly and with great care. He
began to talk of the weather, saying that it would be a very hot summer
and adding that the seasons had changed greatly since he was a boy—a
long time ago. He said that the happiest time of one's life was
undoubtedly one's school-boy days and that he would give anything to be
young again. While he expressed these sentiments which bored us a little
we kept silent. Then he began to talk of school and of books. He asked us
whether we had read the poetry of Thomas Moore or the works of Sir Walter
Scott and Lord Lytton. I pretended that I had read every book he mentioned
so that in the end he said:
"Ah, I can see you are a bookworm like myself. Now," he added, pointing to
Mahony who was regarding us with open eyes, "he is different; he goes in
for games."
He said he had all Sir Walter Scott's works and all Lord Lytton's works at
home and never tired of reading them. "Of course," he said, "there were
some of Lord Lytton's works which boys couldn't read." Mahony asked why
couldn't boys read them—a question which agitated and pained me
because I was afraid the man would think I was as stupid as Mahony. The
man, however, only smiled. I saw that he had great gaps in his mouth
between his yellow teeth. Then he asked us which of us had the most
sweethearts. Mahony mentioned lightly that he had three totties. The man
asked me how many had I. I answered that I had none. He did not believe me
and said he was sure I must have one. I was silent.
"Tell us," said Mahony pertly to the man, "how many have you yourself?"
The man smiled as before and said that when he was our age he had lots of
sweethearts.
"Every boy," he said, "has a little sweetheart."
His attitude on this point struck me as strangely liberal in a man of his
age. In my heart I thought that what he said about boys and sweethearts
was reasonable. But I disliked the words in his mouth and I wondered why
he shivered once or twice as if he feared something or felt a sudden
chill. As he proceeded I noticed that his accent was good. He began to
speak to us about girls, saying what nice soft hair they had and how soft
their hands were and how all girls were not so good as they seemed to be
if one only knew. There was nothing he liked, he said, so much as looking
at a nice young girl, at her nice white hands and her beautiful soft hair.
He gave me the impression that he was repeating something which he had
learned by heart or that, magnetised by some words of his own speech, his
mind was slowly circling round and round in the same orbit. At times he
spoke as if he were simply alluding to some fact that everybody knew, and
at times he lowered his voice and spoke mysteriously as if he were telling
us something secret which he did not wish others to overhear. He repeated
his phrases over and over again, varying them and surrounding them with
his monotonous voice. I continued to gaze towards the foot of the slope,
listening to him.
After a long while his monologue paused. He stood up slowly, saying that
he had to leave us for a minute or so, a few minutes, and, without
changing the direction of my gaze, I saw him walking slowly away from us
towards the near end of the field. We remained silent when he had gone.
After a silence of a few minutes I heard Mahony exclaim:
"I say! Look what he's doing!"
As I neither answered nor raised my eyes Mahony exclaimed again:
"I say... He's a queer old josser!"
"In case he asks us for our names," I said, "let you be Murphy and I'll be
Smith."
We said nothing further to each other.
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