here I was dependin' on her--here
she told me she would come--and all the work to be done--and here
she's sneaked out on me after dinner--and I'm left here in the
lurch."
Yes, of course you are;
because you failed to pay the poor wench on Saturday night the three
dollars which is her princely emolument for fourteen hours a day of
sweaty drudgery seven days a week; because "it slipped your
mind," because you couldn't bear to let it go in one gigantic
lump--could you?--because you thought you'd hang on to the good green
smell of money just a little longer, didn't you?--let it sweat away
in your stocking and smell good just a little longer- didn't
you?--break the poor brute's heart on Saturday night just when she
had her mind all set on fried fish, gin, and f-----g, just because
you wanted to hold on to three wadded, soiled, and rumpled greenbacks
just a little longer--dole it out to her a dollar at a time--tonight
a dollar, Wednesday night a dollar, Friday night the same... and so
are left here strapped and stranded and forlorn, where my father
would have paid and paid at once, and kept his nigger and his
nigger's loyalty. And all because you are a woman, with a woman's
niggard smallness about money, a woman's niggard dealing towards her
serv ants, a woman's selfishness, her small humanity of feeling for
the dumb, the suffering, and afflicted soul of man--and so will fret
and fume and fidget now, all flustered and undone, to call me forth
with: "Here, boy!--Pshaw, now!--To think that she would play a
trick like this!--Why as I say, now---child! child!--I don't know
what I shall do--I'm left here all alone--you'll have to trot right
down and see if you can find someone at once."
Aye!
to call me forth from coolness, and the gladed sweetness of cool
grass to sweat my way through Niggertown in the dreary torpor of the
afternoon; to sweat my way up and down that grassless, tree less
horror of baked clay; to draw my breath in stench and sourness,
breathe in the funky nigger stench, sour wash-pots and branch-sewage,
nigger privies and the sour shambles of the nigger shacks; to scar my
sight and soul with little snot-nosed nigger children fouled with
dung, and so bowed out with rickets that their little legs look like
twin sausages of fat, soft rubber; so to hunt, and knock at
shack-door, so to wheedle, persuade, and cajole, in order to find
some other sullen wench to come and sweat her fourteen hours a day
for seven days a week--and for three dollars!
Or
again, perhaps it will be: "Pshaw, boy!--Why to think that he
would play me such a trick!--Why, I forgot to put the sign out--but I
thought he knew I needed twenty pounds!--If he'd only asked!--but
here he drove right by with not so much as by-your-leave, and here
there's not a speck of ice in the refrigerator--and ice cream and
iced tea to make for supper.--You'll have to trot right down to the
ice house and get me a good ten-cent chunk."
Yes!
A good ten-cent chunk tied with a twist of galling twine, that cuts
like a razor down into my sweaty palm; that wets my trouser's leg
from thigh to buttock; that bangs and rubs and slips and cuts and
freezes against my miserable knees until the flesh is worn raw; that
trickles freezing drops down my bare and aching legs, that takes all
joy from living, that makes me curse my life and all the
circumstances of my birth--and all because you failed to "put
the sign out," all because you failed to think of twenty pounds
of ice!
Or is it a thimble, or a box of
needles, or a spool of thread that you need now! Is it for such as
this that I must "trot around" some place for baking
powder, salt or sugar, or a pound of butter, or a package of tea!
For God's sake thimble me no thimbles and
spool me no spools!
If I must go on
errands send me out upon man's work, with man's dis patch, as my
father used to do! Send me out with one of his niggers upon a wagon
load of fragrant pine, monarch above the rumps of two grey mules!
Send me for a wagon load of sand down by the river, where I can smell
the sultry yellow of the stream, and shout and holler to the boys in
swimming! Send me to town to my father's brick and lumber yard, the
Square, the sparkling traffic of bright afternoon. Send me for
something in the City Market, the smell of fish and oysters, the
green, cool growth of vegetables; the cold refrigeration of hung
beeves, the butchers cleaving and sawing in straw hats and gouted
aprons. Send me out to life and business and the glades of afternoon;
for God's sake, do not torture me with spools of thread, or with the
sunbaked clay and shambling rickets of black Niggertown!
"Son, son!... Where has that fool boy got
to!... Why, as I say now, boy, you'll have to trot right down to...."
With baleful, brooding vision he looked
towards the house. Say me no says, sweet dame; trot me no trots. The
hour is three o'clock, and I would be alone.
So
thinking, feeling, saying, he rolled over on his belly, out of sight,
on the "good" side of the tree, dug bare, luxurious toes in
cool, green grass, and, chin a-cup in his supporting hands, regarded
his small universe of three o'clock.
"A
little child, a limber elf"--twelve years of age, and going on
for thirteen next October. So, midway in May now, midway to thirteen,
with a whole world to think of. Not large or heavy for his age, but
strong and heavy in the shoulders, arms absurdly long, big hands,
legs thin, bowed out a little, long, flat feet; small face and
features quick with life, the eyes deep-set, their look both quick
and still; low brow, wide, stick-out cars, a shock of close-cropped
hair, a large head that hangs forward and projects almost too heavily
for the short, thin neck- not much to look at, someone's ugly
duckling, just a boy.
And yet--could
climb trees like a monkey, spring like a cat; could jump and catch
the maple limb four feet above his head--the bark was already worn
smooth and slick by his big hands; could be up the tree like a flash;
could go places no one else could go; could climb anything, grab hold
of anything, dig his toes in anything; could scale the side of a
cliff if he had to, could almost climb a sheet of glass; could pick
up things with his toes, and hold them, too; could walk on his hands,
bend back and touch the ground, stick his head between his legs, or
wrap his legs around his neck; could make a hoop out of his body and
roll over like a hoop, do hand-springs and cut flips--jump, climb,
and leap as no other boy in town could do. He is a grotesque-looking
little creature, yet unformed and unmatured, in his make-up some
thing between a spider and an ape (the boys, of course, call him
"Monk")--and yet with an eye that sees and holds, an car
that hears and can remember, a nose that smells out unsuspected
pungencies, a spirit swift and mercurial as a flash of light, now
soaring like a rocket, wild with ecstasy, outstripping storm and
flight itself in the aerial joy of skyey buoyancy; now plunged in
nameless, utter, black, unfathomable dejection; now bedded cool in
the reposeful grass beneath the maple tree, remote from time and
brooding on his world of three o'clock; now catlike on his feet--the
soaring rocket of a sudden joy- then catlike spring and catch upon
the lowest limb, then like a monkey up the tree, and like a monkey
down, now rolling like a furious hoop across the yard--at last, upon
his belly in cool grass again, and bedded deep in somnolent repose at
three o'clock.
Now, with chin cupped in
his hands and broodingly aware, he meditates the little world before
him, the world of one small, modest street, the neighbors, and his
uncle's house. For the most part, it is the pleasant world of humble
people and small, humble houses, most of them worn, shabby, so
familiar: the yards, the porches, swings, and railings, and the
rocking chairs; the maple trees, the chestnuts and the oaks; the way
a gate leans open, half ajar, the way the grass grows, and the way
the flowers are planted; the fences, hedges, bushes, and the
honeysuckle vines; the alleyways and all the homely and familiar
backyard world of chicken houses, stables, barns, and orchards, and
each one with its own familiar hobby, the Potterham's neat back
garden, Nebraska Crane's pigeon houses--the whole, small, well-used
world of good, small people.
He sees
the near line of eastern hills, with light upon it, the sweet
familiarity of massed green. His thought soars westward with a vision
of far distances and splendid ranges; his heart turns west with
thoughts of unknown men and places and of wandering; but ever his
heart turns home to this his own world, to what he knows and likes
the best. It is--he feels and senses this obscurely--the place of
common man, his father's kind of people. Except for his uncle's raw,
new house, the sight of which is a desolation to him, it is the place
of the homely, simple houses, and the old, ordinary streets, where
the brick layers, plasterers, and masons, the lumber dealers and the
stonecutters, the plumbers, hardware merchants, butchers, grocers,
and the old, common, native families of the mountains--his mother's
people--make their home.
It is the
place of the Springtime orchards, the loamy, dew-wet morning gardens,
the peach, cherry, apple blossoms, drifting to the ground at morning
in the month of April, the pungent, fragrant, maddening savor of the
breakfast smells. It is the place of roses, lilies, and nasturtiums,
the vine-covered porches of the houses, the strange, delicious smell
of the ripening grapes in August, and the voices--near, strange,
haunting, lonely, most familiar--of the people sitting on their
porches in the Summer darkness, the voices of the lost people in the
darkness as they say good-night. Then boys will hear a screen door
slam, the earth grow silent with the vast and brooding ululation of
the night, and finally the approach, the grinding screech, the brief
halt, the receding loneliness and absence of the last street car
going around the corner on the hill, and will wait there in the
darkness filled with strangeness, thinking, "I was born here,
there's my father, this is I!"
It
is the world of the sun-warm, time-far clucking of the sensual hens
in the forenoon strangeness of the spell of time, and the coarse,
sweet coolness of Crane's cow along the alleyway; and it is the place
of the ice-tongs ringing in the streets, the ice saw droning through
the dripping blocks, the sweating negroes, and the pungent, musty,
and exotic odors of the grocery wagons, the grocery box piled high
with new provisions. It is the place of the forenoon housewives with
their shapeless gingham dresses, bare legs, slippers, turbaned heads,
bare, bony, labor-toughened hands and arms and elbows, and the fresh,
clean, humid smell of houses airing in the morning. It is the place
of the heavy midday dinners, the smells of roasts of beef, corn on
the cob, the deep-hued savor of the big string beans, cooking morning
long into the sweet amity and unction of the fat-streaked pork; and
above it all is the clean, hungry, humid smell and the steaming
freshness of the turnip greens at noon.
It
is the world of magic April and October; world of the first green and
the smell of blossoms; world of the bedded oak leaves and the smell
of smoke in Autumn, and men in shirt-sleeves working in their yards
in red waning light of old October as boys pass by them going home
from school. It is the world of the Summer nights, world of the
dream-strange nights of August, the great moons and the tolling
bells; world of the Winter nights, the howling winds, and the fire
full chimney throats--world of the ash of time and silence while the
piled coals flare and crumble, world of the waiting, waiting,
waiting- for the world of joy, the longed-for face, the hoped-for
step, the unbelieved--in magic of the Spring again.
It
is the world of warmth, nearness, certitude, the wails of home! It is
the world of the plain faces, and the sounding belly laughter; world
of the people who are not too good or fine or proud or precious for
the world's coarse uses; world of the sons who are as their fathers
were before them, and are compacted of man's base, common, stinking
clay of fury, blood, and sweat and agony--and must rise or fall out
of the world from which they came, sink or swim, survive or perish,
live, die, conquer, find alone their way, be baffled, beaten, grow
furious, drunken, desperate, mad, lie smashed and battered in the
stews, find a door, a dwelling place of warmth and love and strong
security, or be driven famished, unassuaged, and furious through the
world until they die!
Last of all, it
is the world of the true friends, the fine, strong boys who can smack
a ball and climb a tree, and are always on the lookout for the thrill
and menace of adventure. They are the brave, free, joyful,
hope-inspiring fellows who are not too nice and dainty and who have
no sneers. Their names are such wonderful, open-sounding names as
John, Jim, Robert, Joe, and Tom. Their names are William, Henry,
George, Ben, Edward, Lee, Hugh, Richard, Arthur, Jack! Their names
are the names of the straight eye and the calm and level glance,
names of the thrown ball, the crack of the bat, the driven hit; names
of wild, jubilant, and secret darkness, brooding, prowling, wild,
exultant night, the wailing whistle and the great wheels pounding at
the river's edge.
They are the names of
hope, the names of love, friendship, confidence, and courage, the
names of life that will prevail and will not be beaten by the names
of desolation, the hopeless, sneering, death loving, and life-hating
names of old scornmaker's pride--the hateful and accursed names that
the boys who live in the western part of town possess.
Finally, they are the rich, unusual names, the
strange, yet homely, sturdy names--the names of George Josiah Webber
and Nebraska Crane.
Nebraska Crane was
walking down the street upon the other side.
He
was bare-headed, his shock of Indian coarse black hair standing out,
his shirt was opened at his strong, lean neck, his square brown face
was tanned and flushed with recent effort. From the big pocket of his
pants the thick black fingers of a fielder's mitt protruded, and upon
his shoulder he was carrying a well-worn ash-wood bat, of which the
handle was wound round tight with tape. He came marching along at his
strong and even stride, his bat upon his shoulder, as steady and as
unperturbed as a soldier, and, as he passed, he turned his fearless
face upon the boy across the street--looked at him with his
black-eyed Indian look, and, without raising his voice, said quietly
in a tone instinct with quiet friendliness: "Hi, Monk!"
And the boy who lay there in the grass, his
face supported in his hands, responded without moving, in the same
toneless, friendly way: "Hello, Bras."
Nebraska
Crane marched on down the street, turned into the alley by his house,
marched down it, turned the corner of his house, and so was lost from
sight.
And the boy who lay on his belly
in the grass continued to look out quietly from the supporting prop
of his cupped hands. But a feeling of certitude and comfort, of
warmth and confidence and quiet joy, had filled his heart, as it
always did when Nebraska Crane passed his house at three o'clock.
The boy lay on his belly in the young and
tender grass. Jerry Alsop, aged sixteen, fat and priestly, his belly
buttoned in blue serge, went down along the other side of the street.
He was a grave and quiet little figure, well liked by the other boys,
but he was always on the outer fringes of their life, always on the
sidelines of their games, always an observer of their universe--a fat
and quiet visitant, well-spoken, pleasant-voiced, compactly buttoned
in the blue serge that he always wore.... There had been one night of
awful searching, one hour when all the torment and the anguish in
that small, fat life had flared out in desperation. He had run away
from home, and they had found him six hours later on the river road,
down by the muddy little river, beside the place where all the other
boys went to swim, the one hole deep enough to drown.
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