Of course the—the thing in the Kite is not signed; and later,
if one of my poems ever finds its way into print, they’ll think it’s that—but
they’ll have to wait.”
Helfenridge
rose. “I must be going,” he said.
“Why
do you go? Because you’re afraid to tell me what you think? You may say what
you please—it can’t make any difference. Annette had to have the dress. I’ve
been trying to avoid you for two days because I was afraid to tell you, but now
I’d rather talk about it—that is if you care to have anything more to do with
me. Because, after all, I’m no better than a blackguard now, you know—there’s
no getting around that fact. You’ve a perfect right to cut me.”
Helfenridge
was mechanically pulling on his overcoat.
“At
what time does the confirmation take place?” he asked. “Tell Miss Annette that
I shall certainly be there.”
On
the ensuing Sunday morning, punctually at half-past ten o’clock, a closed
carriage from the nearest livery-stable drew up before the house occupied by
the Birktons. It was snowing hard, and Annette’s spotless draperies and flowing
veil were concealed under an old cloak of her mother’s as, sheltered by
Maurice’s umbrella, she stepped across the sidewalk, clasping her prayer-book
in one tremulous, white-gloved hand. Mrs. Birkton followed, her shabby bonnet
refurbished with fresh velvet strings, and a glow of excitement on her small
effaced features. She and her son placed themselves on the front seat, leaving
Annette to expand her crisp robe over the width of the opposite cushions; and
the carriage rolled off heavily through the deepening snow.
All
three sat silent during their slow, noiseless drive. Maurice was looking out of
the window, so that the women saw only his uncommunicative profile. Mrs.
Birkton sat wiping away the tears from her flushed face. They were pleasant
tears, and she let them roll gently down her cheeks before she dried them. As
for Annette, her face was pale, with the candid pallor of an intense but
scarce-comprehended emotion. She sat bolt upright, in a kind of pre-Raphaelite
rigidity which accorded with the primitive inexpressiveness of her rapt young
features and the shadowless chalk-like mass of her dress and veil.
At
length the carriage paused behind a train of others; and after some moments of
delay, which seemed to lend a preparatory solemnity to their approach, Maurice,
in the wake of his mother and sister, passed from the snowy crudeness of the
outer world into the rich and complex atmosphere of the Church of the Precious
Blood.
The
raw, sunless daylight, mellowed by the jewelled opacity of stained-glass
windows, fell with a caressing brilliance across the aisles, streaking the
clustered shafts with heraldic emblazonments of gules and azure and leaving the
intervening spaces swathed in a velvety dusk. On the altar, with its
embroidered hanging, the candle-flames hovered like yellow moths over the white
lilies rigidly disposed in tall silver vases; while in their midst, relieved
against the sculptured intricacies of the reredos of grayish stone, rose the
outstretched arms of the great golden crucifix.
The
church was already crowded; but a ribbon, latitudinally dividing the central
aisle, indicated that the foremost rows of chairs (there were no pews in the
Church of the Precious Blood) had been reserved for the candidates for
confirmation and their relations. Thither Maurice followed his mother and
Annette, passing through a dove-like subsidence of feathery white and a double
row of innocent young faces to the seats assigned to them by the verger.
Glancing about as he moved up the aisle he had caught a glimpse of Helfenridge
seated far back, with his head against a pillar; and the sight lent him some
momentary comfort.
Maurice
cast down his eyes while Mrs. Birkton and Annette knelt to pray; and when he
looked up the long white procession of choristers, preceded by the crucifer, was
winding toward the chancel, while the first notes of the hymn
How
bright these glorious spirits shine!
Whence all their
white array? leapt jubilantly out of the expectant
hush.
Maurice,
observing his sister, saw the gravity of her vague young profile intensified to
awe as the procession swept past their seats, closed by the sumptuous grouping
of the ample-sleeved bishop with his attendant clergy in their embroidered
vestments, and seen through the mauve mist of drifting incense fumes. To him it
was like fingering the leaves of a missal in some Umbrian sacristy, speculating
idly, as he looked, upon the meaning of the delicate miniatures, wherein
serene-visaged personages, saintly or seraphic, enacted their mysterious drama
in a setting of fanciful white architecture or against a blue background
starred with gold. But to Annette, he perceived, it was something real, as real
as physical birth or death. Through the symbolic phantasmagoria, which she
perhaps understood still less than he, ran a thread of actuality, linking her
timid being to the occult significance of the whole splendid scene; and Maurice
saw her tremble with the sense of that august alliance. Perhaps, after all, he
reflected, it was the white dress which formed the actual point of contact. At
least he was glad to think that it made her a part of the pageant, a conscious
factor in the gorgeous sacrifice of praise and prayer.
As
he mused thus his unquiet eyes again began to wander; and suddenly they fell
upon a lady who sat near by with a little girl in white muslin at her side. The
lady’s face was very familiar to him, though he had never before seen it
composed into its present expression of devotional repose. It was a pretty
face, crowned by abrupt waves of reddish hair just dashed here and there with a
streak of gray, and lit by an insinuating, agate-colored glance; but the sight
of it burned Maurice’s eyeballs like vitriol, for it was the face of Mrs.
Tolquitt.
He
had never seen her thus before, with sober lips and modestly meditative lids;
nor had he ever seen the small, solemn replica of herself now seated beside her
in billows of clear white muslin. The sight was an intolerable rebuke, and he
would have given the world to hear her familiar laugh rattle derisively through
the high quietude of the aisles. As he gazed she turned her head, fixing upon
him an absent look which gradually melted into a subdued smile of recognition.
Then she made a slight sideward motion of her eyes, which plainly said, “This
is my little girl.”
Maurice
noticed that she showed no surprise at seeing him there; she seemed to consider
his presence as much a matter of course as her own, and with a shudder he said
to himself, “Good heavens, perhaps she thinks I have come to see her daughter
confirmed!”
The
service rolled on, with its bursts of music and interludes of prayer, its
mystical moving of brilliant figures and flitting of lights about the altar;
and at length Maurice was aware of a pause, followed by a stirring of the white
dovecote in whose midst he sat. He saw Mrs. Birkton glance tearfully at
Annette.
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