He read the
verses over to himself in an undertone, and was surprised at what
had come from his pen. This scepticism, this indifference, this
almost frivolous lack of faith—how did it all agree with his
principles? How did it agree with what he had said at Markelov's?
He thrust the copybook into the table drawer and went back to bed.
But he did not fall asleep until dawn, when the larks had already
begun to twitter and the sky was turning paler.
On the following day, soon after he had finished his lesson and
was sitting in the billiard room, Madame Sipiagina entered, looked
round cautiously, and coming up to him with a smile, invited him to
come into her boudoir. She had on a white barege dress, very
simple, but extremely pretty. The embroidered frills of her sleeves
came down as far as the elbow, a broad ribbon encircled her waist,
her hair fell in thick curls about her neck. Everything about her
was inviting and caressing, with a sort of restrained, yet
encouraging, caressiveness, everything; the subdued lustre of her
half-closed eyes, the soft indolence of her voice, her gestures,
her very walk. She conducted Nejdanov into her boudoir, a cosy,
charming room, filled with the scent of flowers and perfumes, the
pure freshness of feminine garments, the constant presence of a
woman. She made him sit down in an armchair, sat down beside him,
and began questioning him about his visit, about Markelov's way of
living, with much tact and sweetness. She showed a genuine interest
in her brother, although she had not once mentioned him in
Nejdanov's presence. One could gather from what she said that the
impression Mariana had made on her brother had not escaped her
notice. She seemed a little disappointed, but whether it was due to
the fact that Mariana did not reciprocate his feelings, or that his
choice should have fallen upon a girl so utterly unlike him, was
not quite clear. But most of all she evidently strove to soften
Nejdanov, to arouse his confidence towards her, to break down his
shyness; she even went so far as to reproach him a little for
having a false idea of her.
Nejdanov listened to her, gazed at her arms, her shoulders, and
from time to time cast a look at her rosy lips and her unruly,
massive curls. His replies were brief at first; he felt a curious
pressure in his throat and chest, but by degrees this sensation
gave way to another, just as disturbing, but not devoid of a
certain sweetness.... He was surprised that such a beautiful
aristocratic lady of important position should take the trouble to
interest herself in him, a simple student, and not only interest
herself, but flirt with him a little besides. He wondered, but
could not make out her object in doing so. To tell the truth, he
was little concerned about the object. Madame Sipiagina went on to
speak of Kolia, and assured Nejdanov that she wished to become
better acquainted with him only so that she might talk to him
seriously about her son, get to know his views on the education of
Russian children. It might have seemed a little curious that such a
wish should have come upon her so suddenly, but the root of the
matter did not lie in what Valentina Mihailovna had said. She had
been seized by a wave of sensuousness, a desire to conquer and
bring to her feet this rebellious young man.
Here it is necessary to go back a little. Valentina Mihailovna
was the daughter of a general who had been neither over-wise nor
over-industrious in his life. He had received only one star and a
buckle as a reward for fifty years' service. She was a Little
Russian, intriguing and sly, endowed, like many of her
countrywomen, with a very simple and even stupid exterior, from
which she knew how to extract the maximum of advantage. Valentina
Mihailovna's parents were not rich, but they had managed to educate
her at the Smolny Convent, where, although considered a republican,
she was always in the foreground and very well treated on account
of her excellent behaviour and industriousness. On leaving the
convent she settled with her mother (her brother had gone into the
country, and her father, the general with the star and buckle, had
died) in a very clean, but extremely chilly, apartment, in which
you could see your own breath as you talked. Valentina Mihailovna
used to make fun of it and declare it was like being in church. She
was very brave in bearing with all the discomforts of a poor,
pinched existence, having a wonderfully sweet temper. With her
mother's help, she managed both to keep up and make new connections
and acquaintances, and was even spoken of in the highest circles as
a very nice well-bred girl. She had several suitors, had fixed upon
Sipiagin from them all, and had very quickly and ingeniously made
him fall in love with her. However, he was soon convinced that he
could not have made a better choice. She was intelligent, rather
good than ill-natured, at bottom cold and indifferent, but unable
to endure the idea that anyone should be indifferent to her.
Valentina Mihailovna was possessed of that peculiar charm, the
characteristic of all "charming" egoists, in which there is neither
poetry nor real sensitiveness, but which is often full of
superficial gentleness, sympathy, sometimes even tenderness. But
these charming egoists must not be thwarted.
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