They are very
domineering and cannot endure independence in others. Women like
Madame Sipiagina excite and disturb people of inexperienced and
passionate natures, but are fond of a quiet and peaceful life
themselves. Virtue comes easy to them, they are placid of
temperament, but a constant desire to command, to attract, and to
please gives them mobility and brilliance. They have an iron will,
and a good deal of their fascination is due to this will. It is
difficult for a man to hold his ground when the mysterious sparks
of tenderness begin to kindle, as if involuntarily, in one of these
unstirred creatures; he waits for the hour to come when the ice
will melt, but the rays only play over the transparent surface, and
never does he see it melt or its smoothness disturbed!
It cost Madame Sipiagina very little to flirt, knowing full well
that it involved no danger for herself, but to take the lustre out
of another's eyes and see them sparkle again, to see another's
cheeks become flushed with desire and dread, to hear another's
voice tremble and break down, to disturb another's soul—oh, how
sweet it was to her soul! How delightful it was late at night, when
she lay down in her snow-white bed to an untroubled sleep, to
remember all these agitated words and looks and sighs. With what a
self-satisfied smile she retired into herself, into the
consciousness of her inaccessibility, her invulnerability, and with
what condescension she abandoned herself to the lawful embrace of
her well-bred husband! It was so pleasant that for a little time
she was filled with emotion, ready to do some kind deed, to help a
fellow creature... Once, after a secretary of legation, who was
madly in love with her, had attempted to cut his throat, she
founded a small alms-house! She had prayed for him fervently,
although her religious feelings from earliest childhood had not
been strongly developed.
And so she talked to Nejdanov, doing everything she could to
bring him to her feet. She allowed him to come near her, she
revealed herself to him, as it were, and with a sweet curiosity,
with a half-maternal tenderness, she watched this handsome,
interesting, stern radical softening towards her quietly and
awkwardly. A day, an hour, a minute later and all this would have
vanished without leaving a trace, but for the time being it was
pleasant, amusing, rather pathetic, and even a little sad.
Forgetting his origin, and knowing that such interest is always
appreciated by lonely people happening to fall among strangers, she
began questioning him about his youth, about his family... But
guessing from his curt replies that she had made a mistake,
Valentina Mihailovna tried to smooth things over and began to
unfold herself still more before him, as a rose unfolds its
fragrant petals on a hot summer's noon, closing them again tightly
at the first approach of the evening coolness.
She could not fully smooth over her blunder, however. Having
been touched on a sensitive spot, Nejdanov could not regain his
former confidence. That bitterness which he always carried, always
felt at the bottom of his heart, stirred again, awakening all his
democratic suspicions and reproaches. "That is not what I've come
here for," he thought, recalling Paklin's admonition. He took
advantage of a pause in the conversation, got up, bowed slightly,
and went out "very foolishly" as he could not help saying to
himself afterwards.
His confusion did not escape Valentina Mihailovna's notice, and
judging by the smile with which she accompanied him, she had put it
down to her own advantage.
In the billiard room Nejdanov came across Mariana. She was
standing with her back to the window, not far from the door of
Madame Sipiagina's boudoir, with her arms tightly folded. Her face
was almost in complete shadow, but she fixed her fearless eyes on
Nejdanov so penetratingly, and her tightly closed lips expressed so
much contempt and insulting pity, that he stood still in
amazement.
"Have you anything to say to me?" he asked involuntarily.
Mariana did not reply for a time.
"No... yes I have, though not now."
"When?"
"You must wait awhile. Perhaps—tomorrow, perhaps—never. I know
so little—what are you really like?"
"But," Nejdanov began, "I sometimes feel... that between
us—"
"But you hardly know me at all," Mariana interrupted him. "Well,
wait a little. Tomorrow, perhaps. Now I have to go to... my
mistress. Goodbye, till tomorrow."
Nejdanov took a step or two in advance, but turned back
suddenly.
"By the way, Mariana Vikentievna... may I come to school with
you one day before it closes? I should like to see what you do
there."
"With pleasure... But it was not the school about which I wished
to speak to you."
"What was it then?"
"Tomorrow," Mariana repeated.
But she did not wait until the next day, and the conversation
between her and Nejdanov took place on that same evening in one of
the linden avenues not far from the terrace.
XIII
SHE came up to him first.
"Mr. Nejdanov," she began, "it seems that you are quite
enchanted with Valentina Mihailovna."
She turned down the avenue without waiting for a reply; he
walked by her side.
"What makes you think so?"
"Is it not a fact? In that case she behaved very foolishly
today. I can imagine how concerned she must have been, and how she
tried to cast her wary nets!"
Nejdanov did not utter a word, but looked at his companion
sideways.
"Listen," she continued, "it's no use pretending; I don't like
Valentina Mihailovna, and you know that well enough. I may seem
unjust...
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