Maisie knew later what
it was, though doubtless she couldn't have made a statement of it:
these were things that a few days' talk with Mrs. Wix quite lighted
up. The principal one was a matter Mrs. Wix herself always
immediately mentioned: she had had a little girl quite of her own,
and the little girl had been killed on the spot. She had had
absolutely nothing else in all the world, and her affliction had
broken her heart. It was comfortably established between them that
Mrs. Wix's heart was broken. What Maisie felt was that she had
been, with passion and anguish, a mother, and that this was
something Miss Overmore was not, something (strangely, confusingly)
that mamma was even less.
So it was that in the course of an extraordinarily short time
she found herself as deeply absorbed in the image of the little
dead Clara Matilda, who, on a crossing in the Harrow Road, had been
knocked down and crushed by the cruellest of hansoms, as she had
ever found herself in the family group made vivid by one of seven.
"She's your little dead sister," Mrs. Wix ended by saying, and
Maisie, all in a tremor of curiosity and compassion, addressed from
that moment a particular piety to the small accepted acquisition.
Somehow she wasn't a real sister, but that only made her the more
romantic. It contributed to this view of her that she was never to
be spoken of in that character to any one else—least of all to Mrs.
Farange, who wouldn't care for her nor recognise the relationship:
it was to be just an unutterable and inexhaustible little secret
with Mrs. Wix. Maisie knew everything about her that could be
known, everything she had said or done in her little mutilated
life, exactly how lovely she was, exactly how her hair was curled
and her frocks were trimmed. Her hair came down far below her
waist—it was of the most wonderful golden brightness, just as Mrs.
Wix's own had been a long time before. Mrs. Wix's own was indeed
very remarkable still, and Maisie had felt at first that she should
never get on with it. It played a large part in the sad and strange
appearance, the appearance as of a kind of greasy greyness, which
Mrs. Wix had presented on the child's arrival. It had originally
been yellow, but time had turned that elegance to ashes, to a
turbid sallow unvenerable white. Still excessively abundant, it was
dressed in a manner of which the poor lady appeared not yet to have
recognised the supersession, with a glossy braid, like a large
diadem, on the top of the head, and behind, at the nape of the
neck, a dingy rosette like a large button. She wore glasses which,
in humble reference to a divergent obliquity of vision, she called
her straighteners, and a little ugly snuff-coloured dress trimmed
with satin bands in the form of scallops and glazed with antiquity.
The straighteners, she explained to Maisie, were put on for the
sake of others, whom, as she believed, they helped to recognise the
bearing, otherwise doubtful, of her regard; the rest of the
melancholy garb could only have been put on for herself. With the
added suggestion of her goggles it reminded her pupil of the
polished shell or corslet of a horrid beetle. At first she had
looked cross and almost cruel; but this impression passed away with
the child's increased perception of her being in the eyes of the
world a figure mainly to laugh at. She was as droll as a charade or
an animal toward the end of the "natural history"—a person whom
people, to make talk lively, described to each other and imitated.
Every one knew the straighteners; every one knew the diadem and the
button, the scallops and satin bands; every one, though Maisie had
never betrayed her, knew even Clara Matilda.
It was on account of these things that mamma got her for such
low pay, really for nothing: so much, one day when Mrs. Wix had
accompanied her into the drawing-room and left her, the child heard
one of the ladies she found there—a lady with eyebrows arched like
skipping-ropes and thick black stitching, like ruled lines for
musical notes on beautiful white gloves—announce to another. She
knew governesses were poor; Miss Overmore was unmentionably and
Mrs. Wix ever so publicly so. Neither this, however, nor the old
brown frock nor the diadem nor the button, made a difference for
Maisie in the charm put forth through everything, the charm of Mrs.
Wix's conveying that somehow, in her ugliness and her poverty, she
was peculiarly and soothingly safe; safer than any one in the
world, than papa, than mamma, than the lady with the arched
eyebrows; safer even, though so much less beautiful, than Miss
Overmore, on whose loveliness, as she supposed it, the little girl
was faintly conscious that one couldn't rest with quite the same
tucked-in and kissed-for-good-night feeling. Mrs. Wix was as safe
as Clara Matilda, who was in heaven and yet, embarrassingly, also
in Kensal Green, where they had been together to see her little
huddled grave. It was from something in Mrs.
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