Whatever the Dean had heard about his
life in Christiania had nothing to do with the feelings which he
nourished for Helene. She, and she alone, had the power to bind
him; he would remain hers for life.
The Dean did not answer him.
A month later he wrote again, acknowledging this
time that he had behaved foolishly. He had been merely thoughtless.
He had been led on by other things. The details were deceptive, but
he swore that this should be the end of it all. He would show that
he deserved to be trusted; nay, he HAD shown it ever since he left
Christiania. He begged the Dean to be magnanimous. This was
practically exile for him, for he could not return to Hellebergene
without Helene. Everything which he loved there had become
consecrated by her presence; every project which he had formed they
had planned together; in fact, his whole future - He fretted and
pined till he found it impossible to work as seriously as he wished
to do.
This time he received an answer - a brief one.
The Dean wrote that only a lengthened probation
could convince them of the sincerity of his purpose.
So it was not to be home, then, and not work; at all
events, not work of any value. He knew his mother too well to doubt
that now the cement business was shelved, whether the company were
formed or not - he was only too sure of that.
He had written to his mother, begging earnestly to
be forgiven for what he had said. She must know that it was only
the heat of the moment. She must know how fond he was of her, and
how unhappy he felt at being in discord with her on the subject
which was, and always would be, most dear to him.
She answered him prettily and at some length,
without a word about what had happened or about Helene. She gave
him a great deal of news, among other things what the Dean intended
to do about the estate.
From this he concluded that she was on the same
terms with the Dean as before. Perhaps his latest reasons for
deferring the affair was precisely this: that he saw that Fru Kaas
did not interest herself for it.
It wore on towards the autumn. All this uncertainty
made him feel lonely, and his thoughts turned towards his friends
at Christiania. He wrote to tell them that he intended to make
towards home. He meant, however, to remain a little time at
Copenhagen.
At Copenhagen he met Angelika Nagel again. She was
in company with two of his student friends. She was in the highest
spirits, glowing with health and beauty, and with that jaunty
assurance which turns the heads of young men.
He had, during all this time, banished the subject
of his intrigue from his mind, and he came there without the least
intention of renewing it; but now, for the first time in his life,
he became jealous!
It was quite a novel feeling, and he was not
prepared to resist it. He grew jealous if he so much as saw her in
company with either of the young men. She had a hearty outspoken
manner, which rekindled his former passion.
Now a new phase of his life began, divided between
furious jealousy and passionate devotion. This led, after her
departure, to an interchange of letters, which ended in his
following her to Christiania.
On board the steamer he overheard a conversation
between the steward and stewardess. "She sat up for him of nights
till she got what she wanted, and now she has got hold of him."
It was possible that this conversation did not
concern him, but it was equally possible that the woman might have
been in the pension at Christiania. He did not know her.
It is strange that in all such intrigues as his with
Angelika the persons concerned are always convinced that they are
invisible. He believed that, up to this time, no human being had
known anything about it. The merest suspicion that this was not the
case made it altogether loathsome.
The pension - Angelika - the letters. He would be
hanged if he would go on with it for any earthly inducement. Had
Angelika angled for him and landed him like a stupid fat fish? He
had been absolutely unsuspicious. The whole affair had been without
importance, until they met again at Copenhagen. Perhaps THAT, too,
had been a deep-laid plan.
Nothing can more wound a man's vanity than to find
that, believing himself a victor, he is in truth a captive.
Rafael paced the deck half the night, and when he
reached Christiania went to an hotel, intending to go home the next
day to Hellebergene, come what would. This and everything of the
kind must end for ever: it simply led straight to the devil.
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