The desire for knowledge—knowledge
for its own sake—had died, and the passionate hope which hitherto had
animated with tireless energy the heart and brain of this splendidly
equipped intellect had suffered total eclipse. The central fires had
gone out. Nothing was worth doing, thinking, working for. There was
nothing to work for any longer!
The professor’s first step was to recall as many of his books as
possible; his second to close his laboratory and stop all research. He
gave no explanation, he invited no questions. His whole personality
crumbled away, so to speak, till his daily life became a mere
mechanical process of clothing the body, feeding the body, keeping it
in good health so as to avoid physical discomfort, and, above all,
doing nothing that could interfere with sleep. The professor did
everything he could to lengthen the hours of sleep, and therefore of
forgetfulness.
It was all clear enough to Dr. Laidlaw. A weaker man, he knew, would
have sought to lose himself in one form or another of sensual
indulgence—sleeping-draughts, drink, the first pleasures that came to
hand. Self-destruction would have been the method of a little bolder
type; and deliberate evil-doing, poisoning with his awful knowledge all
he could, the means of still another kind of man. Mark Ebor was none of
these. He held himself under fine control, facing silently and without
complaint the terrible facts he honestly believed himself to have been
unfortunate enough to discover. Even to his intimate friend and
assistant, Dr. Laidlaw, he vouchsafed no word of true explanation or
lament. He went straight forward to the end, knowing well that the end
was not very far away.
And death came very quietly one day to him, as he was sitting in the
armchair of the study, directly facing the doors of the
laboratory—the doors that no longer opened. Dr. Laidlaw, by happy
chance, was with him at the time, and just able to reach his side in
response to the sudden painful efforts for breath; just in time, too,
to catch the murmured words that fell from the pallid lips like a
message from the other side of the grave.
“Read them, if you must; and, if you can—destroy. But”—his voice
sank so low that Dr. Laidlaw only just caught the dying
syllables—“but—never, never—give them to the world.”
And like a grey bundle of dust loosely gathered up in an old garment
the professor sank back into his chair and expired.
But this was only the death of the body. His spirit had died two
years before.
The estate of the dead man was small and uncomplicated, and Dr.
Laidlaw, as sole executor and residuary legatee, had no difficulty in
settling it up. A month after the funeral he was sitting alone in his
upstairs library, the last sad duties completed, and his mind full of
poignant memories and regrets for the loss of a friend he had revered
and loved, and to whom his debt was so incalculably great. The last two
years, indeed, had been for him terrible. To watch the swift decay of
the greatest combination of heart and brain he had ever known, and to
realize he was powerless to help, was a source of profound grief to him
that would remain to the end of his days.
At the same time an insatiable curiosity possessed him. The study of
dementia was, of course, outside his special province as a specialist,
but he knew enough of it to understand how small a matter might be the
actual cause of how great an illusion, and he had been devoured from
the very beginning by a ceaseless and increasing anxiety to know what
the professor had found in the sands of “Chaldea,” what these precious
Tablets of the Gods might be, and particularly—for this was the real
cause that had sapped the man’s sanity and hope—what the inscription
was that he had believed to have deciphered thereon.
The curious feature of it all to his own mind was, that whereas his
friend had dreamed of finding a message of glorious hope and comfort,
he had apparently found (so far as he had found anything intelligible
at all, and not invented the whole thing in his dementia) that the
secret of the world, and the meaning of life and death, was of so
terrible a nature that it robbed the heart of courage and the soul of
hope. What, then, could be the contents of the little brown parcel the
professor had bequeathed to him with his pregnant dying sentences?
Actually his hand was trembling as he turned to the writing-table
and began slowly to unfasten a small old-fashioned desk on which the
small gilt initials “M.E.” stood forth as a melancholy memento. He put
the key into the lock and half turned it. Then, suddenly, he stopped
and looked about him. Was that a sound at the back of the room? It was
just as though someone had laughed and then tried to smother the laugh
with a cough. A slight shiver ran over him as he stood listening.
“This is absurd,” he said aloud; “too absurd for belief—that I
should be so nervous! It’s the effect of curiosity unduly prolonged.”
He smiled a little sadly and his eyes wandered to the blue summer sky
and the plane trees swaying in the wind below his window. “It’s the
reaction,” he continued.
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