He
began to understand dimly—and with an extraordinary excitement of
happiness.
“Well—and the bigness?” I asked, seizing on a practical point
after listening to his dreaming, “what do you make of that? It must
have had some definite cause surely?”
He turned and fixed his light blue eyes on mine as we paced beside
the Serpentine that summer afternoon when I first heard the story
told. He was half grave, half laughing.
“The size, the bulk, the bigness,” he replied, “must have been in
reality the expression of some mental quality that reached me
psychically, producing its effect directly on my mind and not upon the
eyes at all.” In telling the story he used a simile omitted in the
writing of it, because his sense of humour perceived that no possible
turn of phrase could save it from grotesqueness when actually it was
far from grotesque— extraordinarily pathetic rather: “As though,” he
said, “the great back and shoulders carried beneath the loose black
cape— humps, projections at least; but projections not ugly in
themselves, comely even in some perfectly natural way, that lent to
his person this idea of giant size. His body, though large, was normal
so far as its proportions were concerned. In his spirit, though, there
hid another shape. An aspect of that other shape somehow reached my
mind.”
Then, seeing that I found nothing at the moment to reply, he
added:
“As an angry man you may picture to yourself as red, or a jealous
man as green!” He laughed aloud. “D’ye see, now? It was not really a
physical business at all!”
“We think with only a small part of the past, but it is with
our entire past, including the original bent of our soul, that
we desire, will, and act.”—HENRI BERGSON.
THE balance of his fellow-passengers were not distinguished. There
was a company of French tourists gong to Naples, and another lot of
Germans bound for Athens, some business folk for Smyrna and
Constantinople, and a sprinkling of Russians going home via Odessa,
Batoum, or Novorossisk.
In his own state-room, occupying the upper berth, was a little
round-bodied, red-faced Canadian drummer, “travelling” in
harvest-machines. The name of the machine, its price, and the terms
of purchase were his universe; he knew them in several languages;
beyond them, nothing. He was good-natured, conceding anything to save
trouble. “D’ye mind the light for a bit while I read in bed?” asked
O’Malley. “Don’t mind anything much,” was the cheery reply. “I’m not
particular; I’m easy-going and you needn’t bother.” He turned over to
sleep. “Old traveller,” he added, his voice muffled by sheets and
blankets, “and take things as they come.” And the only objection
O’Malley found in him was that he took things as they came to the
point of not taking baths at all, and not even taking all his garments
off when he went to bed.
The Captain, whom he knew from previous voyages, a genial,
rough-voiced sailor from Sassnitz, chided him for so nearly missing
the boat—”as usual.”
“You’re too late for a seat at my taple,” he said with his
laughing growl; “it’s a pidy. You should have led me know py
telegram, and I then kepd your place. Now you find room at the
doctor’s taple howefer berhaps … !”
“Steamer’s very crowded this time,” O’Malley replied, shrugging
his shoulders; “but you’ll let me come up sometimes for a smoke with
you on the bridge?”
“Of course, of course.”
“Anybody interesting on board?” he asked after a moment’s pause.
The jolly Captain laughed. “‘Pout the zame as usual, you know.
Nothing to stop ze ship! Ask ze doctor; he knows zooner than me. But,
anyway, the nice ones, they get zeazick always and dizappear. Going
Trebizond this time?” he added.
“No; Batoum.”
“Ach! Oil?”
“Caucasus generally—up in the mountains a bit.”
“God blenty veapons then, I hope. They shoot you for two pfennig
up there!” And he was off with his hearty deep laugh and rather
ponderous briskness towards the bridge.
Thus O’Malley found himself placed for meals at the right hand of
Dr. Stahl; opposite him, on the doctor’s left, a talkative Moscow
fur-merchant who, having come to definite conclusions of his own about
things in general, was persuaded the rest of the world must share
them, and who delivered verbose commonplaces with a kind of pontifical
utterance sometimes amusing, but usually boring; on his right a
gentle-eyed, brown-bearded Armenian priest from the Venice monastery
that had sheltered Byron, a man who ate everything except soup with
his knife, yet with a daintiness that made one marvel, and with hands
so graceful they might almost have replaced the knife without off
offence. Beyond the priest sat the rotund Canadian drummer. He kept
silence, watched the dishes carefully lest anything should escape him,
and—ate.
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