That is a
quality, however, which is not without its advantages
in a world such as this. I am not easily
taken in; mere veneer and gilding will not deceive
my eye. I cannot be blind, if I wish it, either to
my own faults or to those of others.” Bruce thought
that he knew himself thoroughly, and that there was
no haunted room in his heart which he had not
boldly explored.
Emmie Trevor had her heart-searchings as she sat
silent before her mirror, while Susan brushed out
the long glossy tresses of her young mistress’s hair.
“I would fain know what my dear uncle regards[60]
as my besetting sin,” mused the gentle girl. “I
was so foolish as almost to fancy that one so loving
and partial as he is would not notice my faults, and
I am still more foolish in feeling a little mortified on
finding that I was mistaken in this. What defect
in my character is most likely to have struck so
acute an observer? My uncle cannot possibly know
how often my thoughts wander in prayer; how cold
and ungrateful I sometimes am even towards Him
whom I yet truly love and adore. It is something
in my outward behaviour that must have displeased
my uncle. Is it vanity?” Emmie raised her eyes
to her mirror, and had certainly no reason to be dissatisfied
with the face which she saw reflected in the
glass. “Yes, I fear that I am vain; I do think
myself pretty, and I cannot help knowing that I
sing well,—I have been told that so often. Then I
have certainly love of approbation; my uncle may
have detected that, for it is so sweet to me to be
admired and praised by those whom I love,—and
perhaps by others also. This vanity and love of
approbation may lead to jealousy, a very decided
sin. Did I not feel some slight vexation even at
Vibert’s playful words about Alice, his wish that I
were more like that gay, giddy girl? I find Alice
nice enough as a companion, but would certainly
never set her up as a model. I am afraid,”—thus[61]
Emmie pursued the current of her reflections,—“I
am afraid that I might be haunted by jealousy, if
circumstances gave me any excuse for harbouring a
passion so mean, so sinful. I have often thought
that for papa to marry again would be to me such a
trial. I could hardly bear that any one, even a
wife, should be dearer to him than myself. I should
grieve at his doing what might really add to his
comfort; and oh! is not this selfish, hatefully selfish?
It shows that with all my love for my only remaining
parent, I care for his happiness less than my
own. Certainly selfishness is in my character; it
lurks in my haunted chamber, and doubtless my
uncle has found it out! Then am I not conscious of
giving way to indolence, and harbouring self-will?
There are duties which I know to be duties, and yet
from the performance of which I am always shrinking,
making excuses for my neglect such as conscience
tells me are weak and false. Truly mine is
a very faulty character, yet am I given to self-deception;
the kindness and partiality of every one round
me help to blind me to my own faults, and perhaps
to draw me into a little hypocrisy, to make each
‘black spot’ more black.”
It will be observed that Emmie was no stranger
to self-examination; it was to the maiden no new
thing to commune with her heart and be still.
[62]
CHAPTER VI.
THREE WARNINGS.
“You are right, Bruce; it is certainly
desirable for you to go down to Wiltshire
to-day to make any needful arrangements,
and prepare for our arrival to-morrow,”
said Mr. Trevor to his son on the following morning,
when the family were at the breakfast-table.
“New servants will need verbal directions; and you
will see to the unpacking of the furniture which
I have sent down from this place, and to the
most suitable disposal of it in the several rooms
of Myst Court.” The gentleman rolled up his
breakfast-napkin, and slipped it into its ring.
“Your train starts at 10.30,” he added, as he rose
from his seat.
“Is Vibert to go with me?” inquired Bruce,
glancing at his brother, who had, as usual, come
down late, and was still engaged with his anchovies
and muffin.[63]
“I do not think that Vibert would give you much
help,” observed Mr. Trevor.
“No help at all,” exclaimed Vibert quickly. “It
may be just in Bruce’s line to order and direct, see
that there are enough of pots and pans in the
kitchen, meat in the larder, and fires all over the
house; but as for me—”
“You think it enough to eat the food and enjoy
the fire,” observed the captain drily.
“And I positively must go to Albert Hall to-night;
the Nairns have asked me to make one of their
party, and I really could not disappoint them,” continued
Vibert. “It is quite necessary that I should
have a little amusement before going to bury myself
in the wilds of Wiltshire. As Moore the poet sings,—
‘To-night at least, to-night be gay,
Whate’er to-morrow brings!’”
“That’s fair enough,” observed the indulgent
father.
Bruce exchanged a glance with his uncle which
conveyed the unuttered thought of both: “It is
scarcely fair that one brother should have all the
trouble and the other all the amusement.” Vibert
noticed the look, and laughed.
“Duty first—pleasure afterwards—that’s the
motto taught to all good little children!” he cried.
“Bruce, you are the elder, and like to be first, so[64]
you naturally pair off with duty, whilst I am modest
enough to be quite contented with pleasure.”
Mr. Trevor smiled at the jest, though he shook
his bald head in gentle reproof. Then turning to his
brother-in-law, he observed, “Edward, I have an
early engagement in London, and must be off to the
station. I am afraid that I shall not find you here
on my return.”
“I also start early,” said the captain. “Emmie
has ordered the conveyance to be at the door at ten.
I must therefore wish you good-bye now, thanking
you for my pleasant visit to Summer Villa, and
hoping next spring to find you all well and happy
in your new home.”
The brothers-in-law cordially shook hands and
parted, Mr. Trevor going off to the station, as usual,
on foot.
“I say, Bruce,” observed Vibert, “if you have
the settling about the rooms at Myst Court, mind
that you give me a good one. I like plenty of air
and light, and a cheerful view. No poky little cabin
for me, nor an attic at the top of the house; long
stairs are a terrible bore.”
“I shall certainly give my first attention to the
accommodation of my father and sister,” said Bruce;
“they never think of themselves.”
“A hit at me, I suppose,” cried Vibert with unruffled[65]
good-humour. “Ah! that reminds me of our
conversation last evening.
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