“You have no
fault at all, except the fault of being a great deal too
good. I should like you better if you were as
lively and larky as Alice!”
“Saucy boy!” said Emmie, and she smiled.
“But, captain,” continued Vibert, addressing himself
to his uncle, “though we are willing enough to
read what you write, we won’t be driven to anything
in the shape of confession. You may tell us
what is your notion of what lurks in our haunted[56]
rooms, but we won’t invite you in and say, ‘Behold
there’s my besetting sin!’”
“I want no confessions,” said Captain Arrows.
“I repeat that my only object is to induce you to
pull down your brickwork, draw back your curtains,
and search for yourselves; or, to drop metaphor and
speak in plain words, to lead you to make the discovery
of the weakest point in your respective characters
the subject of candid investigation and serious
thought.”
And to a certain degree this desired result was
obtained. Though Vibert laughed, and Bruce looked
indifferent, to their minds, as well as to that of their
sister, the subject of self-knowledge recurred at different
parts of the evening.
“I don’t suppose that the captain can look further
through a mill-stone than can any one else,” thought
Vibert; “yet he has uncommonly sharp eyes, and is
always on the watch. No doubt he learned that
habit at sea. I am glad that he can detect some
fault in Master Bruce, who is a kind of pope in our
house, though I, for one, don’t believe in his infallibility.
I wonder on what my uncle will fix as the
bad spirit in my haunted room. I should say—let
me think—I have never thought about the matter
before. Well, I don’t take to religion as earnestly
as do papa and my elder brother and sister. I don’t[57]
go twice to church on Sundays, nor—if the truth
must be owned—do I pay much attention to the
service whilst I am there. I’d rather any day read
a novel than a serious book. I believe that’s the
worst I can say of myself. The captain would call
that—let me see—would he call that irreligion?
No, no; that name is too hard. I’m thoughtless, I
own, but certainly not irreligious. Impiety? Why,
that is worse still! I do not pretend to be in the
least pious, but still I’d be ready to knock down
any fellow who called me the reverse. I’m something
between the two poles. Levity? Ah, that’s
the word, the precise word to describe my besetting
sin, if one can call mere levity a sin. I am no man’s
enemy but my own; and not my own enemy either,
for I spare and indulge myself in every way that I
can. Levity may be a fault at sixty, but it’s no
fault at all at sixteen. I should decidedly object to
be as sober as Bruce. He goes on his way like a
steady old coach, while I am like a bicycle,”—Vibert
laughed to himself as the simile occurred to his fancy.
“A bicycle is quick, light, not made to carry much
luggage, and a little given to coming to smash! Yes,
I skim the world like a bicycle, and levity is my
worst fault!” Yawning after the unusual effort of
even such cursory self-examination, Vibert now set
his thoughts free to ramble in any direction, satisfied[58]
that nothing of a serious nature could be laid to his
charge.
“It is strange that my uncle should imagine that
he can penetrate the recesses of the heart of another,”
such was the reflection of Bruce, as, candle in hand,
he mounted the staircase that night. “Captain
Arrows can but judge of my character by my outward
conduct, and he can have seen but little to find
fault with in that. I own—and with regret—that
in many points I fail in my duty towards my Maker;
but that is a secret between my conscience and God,—a
secret which no man can penetrate, and with
which no man has a right to meddle. Yet it is evident
that my uncle has detected some visible error,
whatever that error may be. I am aware that I
have a defective temper, but I have lately been gaining
some control over that which Calvin called an
‘unruly beast.’ I may, indeed, have betrayed some
impatience in my manner towards Vibert in the
presence of my critical uncle,” thus flowed on the
reflections of Bruce as he entered his room, and
closed the door behind him. “I now remember my
uncle’s remarking to me that I might have more influence
with my brother if I showed him greater indulgence.
But who can have patience with Vibert’s
follies?” Bruce set down his candle, and threw
himself on a chair. “Vibert has been a spoilt child[59]
from his cradle, and now, when nearly seventeen
years of age, is no better than a spoilt child still!
Our poor dear mother made her youngest-born almost
an idol; my father is blind to his faults; Emmie
pets and humours him to the top of his bent; and
all the world does the same. Vibert is admired,
courted, and welcomed wherever he goes, because,
forsooth, his face is what girls call handsome, and he
can rattle off any amount of nonsense to please them.
Vibert does not mind playing the fool, and he plays
it to the life!” Bruce paused, and conscience gave
a low note of warning to the elder brother. “I am,
I fear, harsh in my judgment. Want of charity,
that is perhaps my besetting sin. I am too quick to
perceive the faults and follies of others.
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