They can sit at their ease and
gape at the play. If they know nothing of victory, they are at least spared the
knowledge of defeat. They live as we all should live – undisturbed,
indifferent, and without disquiet. They neither bring ruin upon others, nor
ever receive it from alien hands. Your rank and wealth, Harry; my brains, such
as they are – my art, whatever it may be worth; Dorian Gray’s good
looks – we shall all suffer for what the gods have given us, suffer
terribly.”
“Dorian Gray? Is that his name?” asked Lord Henry, walking
across the studio towards Basil Hallward.
“Yes, that is his name. I didn’t intend to tell it to
you.”
“But why not?”
“Oh, I can’t explain. When I like people immensely, I never tell
their names to any one. It is like surrendering a part of them. I have grown to
love secrecy. It seems to be the one thing that can make modern life mysterious
or marvellous to us. The commonest thing is delightful if one only hides it.
When I leave town now I never tell my people where I am going. If I did, I
would lose all my pleasure. It is a silly habit, I dare say, but somehow it
seems to bring a great deal of romance into one’s life. I suppose you
think me awfully foolish about it?”
“Not at all,” answered Lord Henry, “not at all, my dear
Basil. You seem to forget that I am married, and the one charm of marriage is
that it makes a life of deception absolutely necessary for both parties. I
never know where my wife is, and my wife never knows what I am doing. When we
meet – we do meet occasionally, when we dine out together, or go down to
the Duke’s – we tell each other the most absurd stories with the
most serious faces. My wife is very good at it – much better, in fact,
than I am. She never gets confused over her dates, and I always do. But when
she does find me out, she makes no row at all. I sometimes wish she would; but
she merely laughs at me.”
“I hate the way you talk about your married life, Harry,” said
Basil Hallward, strolling towards the door that led into the garden. “I
believe that you are really a very good husband, but that you are thoroughly
ashamed of your own virtues. You are an extraordinary fellow. You never say a
moral thing, and you never do a wrong thing. Your cynicism is simply a
pose.”
“Being natural is simply a pose, and the most irritating pose I
know,” cried Lord Henry, laughing; and the two young men went out into
the garden together and ensconced themselves on a long bamboo seat that stood
in the shade of a tall laurel bush. The sunlight slipped over the polished
leaves. In the grass, white daisies were tremulous.
After a pause, Lord Henry pulled out his watch. “I am afraid I must be
going, Basil,” he murmured, “and before I go, I insist on your
answering a question I put to you some time ago.”
“What is that?” said the painter, keeping his eyes fixed on the
ground.
“You know quite well.”
“I do not, Harry.”
“Well, I will tell you what it is. I want you to explain to me why you
won’t exhibit Dorian Gray’s picture. I want the real
reason.”
“I told you the real reason.”
“No, you did not.
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