There was not a flaw from start to
finish. The Trustees were certain to appoint him—he had that from a sure
quarter—and it was but a question of a year or two, perhaps only of a month or
two, before all this great and golden vision should be converted into hard and
tangible fact. He drank off his glass of whisky and soda; it had become flat
and brackish, but to him it was nectar, since it was flavoured with ecstasy.
He
frowned suddenly as he went upstairs to his room. An unpleasant recollection
had intruded for a moment on his amazing fantasy; but he dismissed the thought
as soon as it arose. That was all over, there could be no possibility of
trouble from that direction; and so, his mind filled with images, he fell
asleep and saw Lupton as the centre of the whole world, like Jerusalem in the ancient maps.
A
student of the deep things of mysticism has detected a curious element of
comedy in the management of human concerns; and there certainly seems a touch
of humour in the fact that on this very night, while Horbury was building the
splendid Lupton of the future, the palace of his thought and his life was
shattered for ever into bitter dust and nothingness. But so it was. The Dread
Arrest had been solemnly recognised, and that wretched canonry at Wareham was irrevocably pronounced for doom.
Fantastic were the elements of forces that had gone to the ordering of this
great sentence: raw corn spirit in the guise of sherry, the impertinence (or
what seemed such) of an elderly clergyman, a boiled leg of mutton, a
troublesome and disobedient boy, and—another person.
He
was standing in a wild, bare country. Something about it seemed vaguely
familiar: the land rose and fell in dull and weary undulations, in a vast
circle of dun ploughland and grey meadow, bounded by a dim horizon without
promise or hope, dreary as a prison wall. The infinite melancholy of an autumn
evening brooded heavily over all the world, and the
sky was hidden by livid clouds.
It
all brought back to him some far-off memory, and yet he knew that he gazed on
that sad plain for the first time. There was a deep and heavy silence over all;
a silence unbroken by so much as the fluttering of a
leaf. The trees seemed of a strange shape, and strange were the stunted thorns
dotted about the broken field in which he stood. A little path at his feet,
bordered by the thorn bushes, wandered away to the left into the dim twilight;
it had about it some indefinable air of mystery, as if it must lead one down
into a mystic region where all earthly things are forgotten and lost for ever.
He
sat down beneath the bare, twisted boughs of a great tree and watched the
dreary land grow darker and yet darker; he wondered, half-consciously, where he
was and how he had come to that place, remembering, faintly, tales of like
adventure. A man passed by a familiar wall one day, and opening a door before
unnoticed, found himself in a new world of unsurmised and marvellous
experiences. Another man shot an arrow farther than any of his friends and
became the husband of the fairy. Yet—this was not fairyland; these were rather
the sad fields and unhappy graves of the underworld than the abode of endless
pleasures and undying delights. And yet in all that he saw there was the
promise of great wonder.
Only
one thing was clear to him. He knew that he was Ambrose, that he had been
driven from great and unspeakable joys into miserable exile and banishment. He
had come from a far, far place by a hidden way, and darkness had closed about
him, and bitter drink and deadly meat were given him, and all gladness was
hidden from him. This was all he could remember; and now he was astray, he knew
not how or why, in this wild, sad land, and the night descended dark upon him.
Suddenly
there was, as it were, a cry far away in the shadowy silence, and the thorn
bushes began to rustle before a shrilling wind that rose as the night came
down. At this summons the heavy clouds broke up and dispersed, fleeting across
the sky, and the pure heaven appeared with the last
rose flush of the sunset dying from it, and there shone the silver light of the
evening star. Ambrose's heart was drawn up to this light as he gazed: he saw
that the star grew greater and greater; it advanced towards him through the
air; its beams pierced to his soul as if they were the sound of a silver
trumpet. An ocean of white splendour flowed over him: he dwelt within the star.
It
was but for a moment; he was still sitting beneath the tree of the twisted
branches. But the sky was now clear and filled with a great peace; the wind had
fallen and a more happy light shone on the great plain. Ambrose was thirsty,
and then he saw that beside the tree there was a well, half hidden by the
arching roots that rose above it. The water was still and shining, as though it
were a mirror of black marble, and marking the brim was a great stone on which
were cut the letters:
"FONS VITAE IMMORTALIS."
He
rose and, bending over the well, put down his lips to drink, and his soul and
body were filled as with a flood of joy. Now he knew that all his days of exile
he had borne with pain and grief a heavy, weary body. There had been dolours in
every limb and achings in every bone; his feet had dragged upon the ground,
slowly, wearily, as the feet of those who go in chains. But dim, broken
spectres, miserable shapes and crooked images of the world had his eyes seen;
for they were eyes bleared with sickness, darkened by the approach of death.
Now, indeed, he clearly beheld the shining vision of things immortal. He drank
great draughts of the dark, glittering water, drinking, it seemed, the light of
the reflected stars; and he was filled with life. Every sinew, every muscle,
every particle of the deadly flesh shuddered and quickened in the communion of
that well-water.
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